NNecessary that we swat flies for our sanity in sobriety

Well here it is ladies,that other one was getting way 2 long!On ur marks get set go!

[BANDIDA]

Dare I guess what UR referring 2? Could it B the garbage on the curb?

[ibizan]

phartist commented that someone she thought was a friend trashed her in another forum.....and i commented that i was told years ago by a wise man in this life u will find that some ppl are like flies...they eat poop...(well we know what they REALLY eat but medhelp would delete it....)and pester others!so that leaves us to get out our fly swatters!:)

[BANDIDA]

I have to go to wk...jist finished a burger on the grill at home! I am full and would much rather take a nap..better yet stay home and float in the pool!!!! BUTT oops...Gotta go make the subs! Ibi thought U were reffering to  someone who U told to put a twist tie on and take it to the curb! Anyhoo I will B back round 10 or so and may log on to C whatup!!!! Ya'll take care and LUV 1 another....WE R all HUMAN and make boo-boo's even in our words and posts! We would all like 2 think we know it all but remember who really does!!!! SEE'Ya"s Later Terry (PS I wish they would let me have a swatter at wk. sometimes there are real fly's around!!!) Peace ladies!!!!

[MJIthewriter]

phartist and I have been having a conflict. It's sad how it broke out. I'm sorry she felt I trashed her.

[Phtartist]

Gees MJ, Who needed you to post that.  That is between us and who says what I was talking about to iziban has anything to do with you?

Great day today girls.  Went to the festival at the shore.  Music, vendors, and saw my future daughter in law.  I was just about in tears seeing how hard she works.  That girl is the heartbeat of everything going on down in the shore town.  Walkie talkies, posters with her e-mail for contacts to get info on events, she is hooked up.  No wonder she is incommunicato.  Got to hug her, tell her I miss her.  

Migraine all day.........gonna go chill.  You my girls, ttyl.

[ibizan]

girls girls!!!!!i just made that staement in general for i have a dry sometimes caustic wit.....i don't know any specifics and don't really want too.......that saying is helpful to me if i get to overly sensitive to something someone has said or someone who rubs me the wrong way....and it sure happens at work a lot.......like Al Franken said as Stuart Smalley on SNL years ago...name it claim it dump it!

[MJIthewriter]

Here's a cool song I find fitting.  If anyone wants the song, you can pm me with your email and I can send it.
http://www.actionext.com/names_c/church_of_rhythm_lyrics/common_people.html

You can play a sample on the net with lesser quality accoustics. Someone must have uploaded a recording from a live performance. (the actual CD version sounds much better)

[Phtartist]

Good morning babes, Sunday, and a beautiful one at that.  This is Rockin Sunday here at the shore.  Too many bands at the festival today to name.  Bruce hasn't shown up yet, or John Bon Jovi.  The both live around here.  They pop up to jam every once in a while.  Bruce has the same floor guy as I do.  Hes in the program too, the floor guy.  :0)  Queen Latifa goes by on her motorcycle, only saw her once.  She lives three towns over.

I met Bruces band member, ya know the guy that was in the HBO show about the Italian family. I did an art show with a friend. She is friends with his wife.  Rick Springfield waited in the Dr. office for his grandmother with me.  haha funny, Six degrees of seperation.
( I have fibro fog, its real, can't remember things, brains foggy.  Names elude me like the hbo show and the guys name) I remember talking with him, his wife and my friend, what we were wearing etc. no names.  Lights are on, nobodies home, hahaha I'm use to it.

Oh, my friends tent with the butterflies was awesome!!!  The beautiful thing was to see children having butterflies on their little hands and their faces light up !

My Hubby liked the music, I shopped a little.  

About today, I think I will stay home and chill.  I think its wise not to run myself down.  Still have the headache.  Its a neuralgia that comes with the FM.  Just gonna chill.  

I'm in a good space girls, God is good.  
How you all doin?
ta ta

[BANDIDA]

Off 4 the next 3 days..PHEW! Last wks sched. really messed me up! A bit concerned about this storm,,My Son,girlfriend and MY GRANDBABY (who I have not seen) R there. So is the Ex butt oops, I meant but he and his can take care of selves. They all live in Key West so they R getting the effects now. MOMS worry....I know they'll B OK I lived there 16 yrs. saw a lot of storms come thru and lived on a sailboat to boot! Just waiting 4 a call to let me know everyones prepared and OK.. Standing by maiteys.. hoist me a message! Just hanging out on the poopdeck lololol Terry

[TJack]

Hi there.  Oh i can only imagine since i have never been in or near a hurricane, that you are a worried Mom and Grandma right now.  It might knock phone lines down so don't worry too much if you don't get a call right away.  Watch the weather station.  
I want to get a relaxation, meditation type cd.  I looked on Amazon, but so many to choose from.  Sure wish i could listen to a few.  I know when i do that type of relaxation and breathing technique at my therapists and she talks and plays soft music through it, it sure does help with anxiety and i think something like that would be good to go to sleep too also.  
I am so down right now because of my Mom.  I know she isn't herself, but it still hurts that she is mad at me.  I found out from the nurse today that the psych doc did tell her his diagnosis, alzheimers.  She told him, so you think i'm crazy?   He said no and explained and then the nurse said she heard mom tell others in there He thinks i'm crazy.  But, she has forgotten all of that by now probably.  Oh Lord one day at a time.
Hang in there Maitey!  I'll be praying that your kids are safe and you hear from them soon.  Hugs, Tonya

[ibizan]

ur mom isn't really angry with u dear....she's upset with life ageing (aging) and when protein plaques start attacking the brain tissue which is what happens with Alz it is the damn cycle of life/ageing.Remember Estelle Getty?the cranky hilarious mom on golden girls?she died of the same disease my mom has- Lewy Body Dementia which is a form of Alz.This will make u muster ur mental sobriety muscles as it has mine.and bandida..like the hurricane said to the coconut tree.....hold on2 ur nuts....this ain't gonna be no ordinary blow job!yuck yuck yuck!

[BANDIDA]

Just woke up from a little siesta isn't that what days off R 4 ? TJack ibi's right what your Mom is saying and doing and the way she is behaving is NOT directed toward U. I can not imagine how difficult this is  4 U and how U need to D-stress. I bet Ibi would agree w/me since we are Leos that a cat is such a relaxing friend, if I could part with my Oreo I would send him 2 U! They R so funny,users lovers,purrers talkers....etc But to pet them and listen 2 them is verry comforting. Not to mention they R also very mood sensitive and connect w/ya when ur feeling poopy. Oreo says Meow 2 U! AJ well he's a different story. Just trying to cheer U up a bit. I'm really not too too worried about the weather and storm it's raining here right now and very humid,thats what hurricanes do. Phonelines schmolines he does not call me in good weather so I'm not holding my breath. I could always call the EX ...that would be interesting....Hey honey has the boat sunk yet? Get UR Dinghy ready!

[MJIthewriter]

Let me know how that Fay turns out. I'm facinated by weather phenom... I can show you a cool weather site I like to visit.

[MJIthewriter]

Here we go:
http://www.****.com

[MJIthewriter]

Okay it didn't work... I guess you'll all have to pm me for that link to the weather blog showing Fay hitting Flordia.

[Phtartist]

I do know how you feel.  My little buddy who I grew up with lived down there for years and last year and the year before when the hurricanes hit, man, did I pray for him and his family.  He sent me pix after his electric came back on.  The storm affected their communication but they were fine.

Did you say you live on a boat?  I've always wanted to do that.  

I always say our children have their own higher power with them and they will be fine.  Ha ha especially when we're spinning in our heads worrying.

Gods Speed honey.  

[BANDIDA]

My Bobby actually did call me last nite all is well he had just finshed cooking dinner..fried lobster homemade french fries etc...he takes after me and I taught him well in the culinary Dept. Still raining here and pretty poopy, lost power for a bit back on for the moment. Still had to go to probation this a.m flooding is beginning in some areas and theres more rain steadily on the way, This storm is really nothing to fret over to much,just inconvenient. And yes I lived on a sailboat out at anchor offshore the whole 16 yrs I lived in Key West! As a matter of fact Bobby (my son) was born on my first boat which was named Bandida. His birth certificate says place of birth- Yacht Bandida. I had a home(boat birth) w/ midwives it was great. Talked to his girlfriend 1st time and she took my address down and swears pic's of Bobby Jr. R coming! I can't wait!!!! I'll B on and around today as long as I have power! Catch ya later Maiteys!!!

[Phtartist]

How colorful!  What a chapter in your life, must have been awesome!!  

Baby pictures Yay!!  
I hope some day my kids will have kids.  I think so.

It might sound strange but when we have heavy storms here, hurricanes, nor easter, ice storm last year, I love it.  You find me out in them.  The ice storm I just stayed near the house cause it hurt your skin!  but heavy rain that slicks yer hair back, cleans ya pores out, love it.  

The most amazing experience last winter was walking outside after the ice storm. Everything sparkled, everything was coated with glass like ice. All you heard was crackling, no cars,no birds, just crackling and the sun blinded you shooting off the fascets of cuts of ice.  It was like stepping out into a fairy like fantasy land.  It took my breath away.
To experience this sober and retain the whole memory is a gift I will always have with me.  

I use to think I needed booze to feel what I felt at that time in the ice fantasy.

[TJack]

Bandida, i do believe you should write a book.  It would be a page turner for sure.  
I am so glad your son called you and baby pictures to follow woohoo!  
PH, i always enjoy your posts.  You are like a free spirit.   I want to be able to feel that way.  Right now i am so far down in this hole, but things will work out.  I am praying hard and God never fails.  Trying to find the right place for my Mom and i am 2000 miles away.  Thank the Lord my niece is there and helping.  But, it is all new to us.
I went to AA meeting this morning and it was great;  Met with my sponsor for 40 min. before meeting.  She is so awesome and understanding, but firm she is about going to meetings and even out of the state or country.  She says she goes even if she doesn't understand their language.  She went in Russia and to a meeting in Brazil also.
Hope your rain has passed by now Bandida.  Thanks for all your posts girls.  Tonya

[BANDIDA]

Don't think I haven't thought of writiing a book!!!! So many ppl don't really beleive me when I tell some of my lifes experiences!!! Such as would U believe that when I was in high school in Karachi Pakistan and stayed At Prime Minister Bhuttos (the old dead original 1) compound? All Bcuz his icky son had a crush on me and I was housed there during a school field hockey tournament! Oh the icky son is dead 2 and so is his brother and recently his sister. Also been to Kabul Afghanistan and thru the Khyber pass 3 times? Also on school sport trips! I have more than 1 book in me BUT have no idea on how to write 1!!! Now would be a good time tho right since I'm confined with Mr. Puter!!!LOLOL You would PEE your panties to hear of some of my adventures.....Keep your moral up there girl you can only do so much and You Must care for U too!!!!!! still raining windy but it's not that bad! Catch ya's later!!!

[TJack]

Oh My Goodness Hon.  You have an interesting past. WOW!  I am feeling a little better this evening.  Went to therapy and that helped.  I can only do what i can.  I keep telling myself, it is going to work out and be okay.  I was really caught off guard with this happening so suddenly to my Mom.   It went from rehab to the psych ward and so sad to hear the outcome is Alzheimers.  Let's come up with a title for your book. umm   I will think on it, you girls do the same.  Hang in there and keep posting!!!!  I will be hanging here and enjoying these olympic.  Our beach volleyball girls are awesome.
Going for the gold tonight.  Oh i know it is already done and over but i want to watch it.

[BANDIDA]

I would Luv to stick around and chat but the power keeps going on and off!!! Don't want to fry my Buddy Mr. Puter!!! I'll catch up with ya'll tomorrow when the weather etc...is better. Have a beautiful evening LUV Terry

[Phtartist]

Hey gilrs, just dropping by to say hi.

Working today, its good to be painting again.  I've been putting off this painting for quite some time.  I finally got a better photo to work from. Now I can be more confident in doing it.  

Weather here today is perfect, not hot not cold. Sunny. I should be outside but my head is still killing me.

I'm here in my studio, with the tunes playing, surfing around, then I'll paint.  I worked on it a little early this a.m.

Early a.m., what a gift, who'da thunk I would ever love early morning.  Its my favorite time of the day now.  Love the sunrise and the moon setting.  The birds waking up a chirp at a time.

No hangover.  
I remember watching a sunrise one morning while camping, on an island in a lake, with a beer.  We were loaded that whole trip.  It makes me sick thinking of it. High speeds in the boat on the lake.  They were our drinking buddies and had a house on land.  We use to pull their boat up to restaurants/bars and get even more loaded.

It was a wild time but I do prefer the life I have now.  This morning was real, and I'm not chasing the high all day instead of enjoying the day for the day it is.

[TJack]

What a great testimony to staying sober!   Life is much more enjoyable this way.
I was on that early bird kick for a long time.   Just because i couldn't sleep.  i enjoyed those hours alone.   I find myself wanting to sleep more, i think so i don't have to think about what's ahead for my Mom and myself.  
Anyway i really enjoyed your post.  Keep painting and when you finish it maybe you will post it on your site?  Have a good day. Tonya

[Phtartist]

I laid down yesterday, I was bored.  Worked what I could, did not feel like feeling.

My hubby is in a crappy mood, stress. Of course I absorb his mood, didn't want to feel that. The Fibro was bad, felt like a poster child for the illness, didn't want to feel that.  I felt a little anxiey, from where I figured it was the undertow of all the wedding stuff. I didn't want to feel that.

So, I went to bed and took a nap.  It's OK though, we use to drink to not feel the pains we don't want to feel now.  Sleeping to not feel is an alternative.  I wish I would choose a more active alternative to not feeling the pain like playing with my dogs, but the thing is, I go into my depression place, its familiar.  I was never one to take assertive actions most of the times. When its a live or die situation I do but just simple little every day blahs, I go for the easy comfort of my bed, I want to feel good. Just for an hour.  Then I got up and did something else because it was an hour later and time to feed the dogs and make dinner, something to do!  AHA.

Having nothing to do is my enemy. Then I get into my own head and that is a dangerous place for this alcoholic to be.  Left alone with my brain and I can self destruct or plan the demise of anything.: -o

Thank goodness, I don't like being like that, that's where being sober and having the 12 steps helps me.  I once said I wasn't nurtured as a kid, but the 12 steps is nurturing me now.  It has really helped me soften.

Prayers to you and your Mom

[TJack]

Thanks for your posts.  Always uplifting.  So sorry you have a double whammy,
sobriety and the fibro, what a plate full.
I talked to my Mom earlier.  I dont think she is mad at me. I knew it wasn't really her who was talking and mad, but it still hurt some.  She was so excited when i told her she is going home on Monday a.m.  I said the dr. started you on new meds and she was sharp enough to say, oh Dr. Jin?  I said yes and then she said maybe he wants to get me acclimated to the new medication.  I thought that was so Good, her coming up with that.  I agreed and told her i thought when she got back to her own apartment and surroundings she would be alot better and feel better.  Oh I do so pray that happens.
I should have myself at the Y right now swimming laps, but here i sit.  Making phone calls, getting phone calls and feeling anxiety.  My therapist said, Going to bed is fine.
If that is the safe place for me to take care of me.  I need to be studying my 12 steps.
My sponsor is so awesome and understanding but she is a task master also. haha
Thank you for your prayers.  I certainly do believe in them.  One day at a time.  Tonya

[Phtartist]

It does my heart good to know your Mom responded like herself with you !!!

When I have myself stuck in something worrying I use two sayings one AA - This too shall pass,   and the other I don't know where I heard it, but it works for me.

Today, is the tommorrow,  we worried about yesterday.

I don't think that one  relates to your situation, but I like it.

Darn! I'm happy for you, I'll keep shouting out to the Man upstairs.  Hugs.

[BANDIDA]

Hello everyone!!!! Been a crazy week with this storm....Sun is finally shinnin T'day still a bit windy and little bit rain here and there.  TJack...you knew UR Mom was not directing her comments toward U.  I feel like this may happen again, and U need to realize that's Ok and is just going to be a fact of life, WE I will B here 4 U when U need to talk! Bet she will feel like a Queen when she gets back 2 her own place. Don't worry bout UR swimming right now you must certainly B stressed out enough! Just rest, eat well and take care of URSELF
!!! Same go's 4 U Phtartist!!!!  ibi as always.... U give the best advice and I read all that U write to everyone and so totally respect UR advice,comments and UR sense of humour...maybe some can't take it right! U Girls R the best and I'll B standing by....gotta go rinse the hair color out of my hair....I'll be back as Arnold say's Terry xxxooo

[ibizan]

yes Bandida.....there r some who cannot take my straightforward opinions but if it makes them think then thats a good thing!i've never had a real high need for others approval!and TJack i totally understand where ur at with ur mom......when i go visit mine i stand with others in parking lot who have just placed their loved one....and i feel good that i can relate to them and help them with where their at in this journey.and PH just be easy on self......hope u do something that will defocus ur mind from poop u have no control over!TGIF!

[Phtartist]

My brother is coming over today, he is my little bro, three years younger.  We chat it up when we're together, its awesome.  

I think we'll go to lunch.  I just got finished getting my cable changed to another server.  I was alone with the installer,I felt leary of his presence.  He seemed wasted. I could not understand his words, his eyes were red as an apple and he was swaying.  He did his job great, just a little off.  Lost his balance a few times, left his equipment here.  

Funny how once out of a scene, we can pick off people right away.  I wasn't a druggie by  choice, but sure bumped elbows with many.  

As time went on his mood changed to less tolerant and his eyes were white again.  Made me fear for my posessions.

Thank God and meditation ( 11th step)  that I am able to detach from the pain of my affliction.  Today the FM pain in my neck and head is excruciating.  I look at it as if my body is only my vessel which carries me through my day and experiences.  I will see my brother anyway.  I will take from it the little treasures that it has to offer.  The pain will never be bad enough to put me down.  I can rest later if need be.  I do have medicine for pain that calms it a bit, just a bit.  A small dose may help the pain from interupting my interaction with my baby brother.  Right now laughing hurts.

[TJack]

Read your posts and they are always so encouraging for me.  I feel like i am coming undone at times.  May need to be admitted myself.  Have been trying to stay busy today with laundry and vacumning, all of that necessary stuff.  
PH, bless your heart.  Hope you feel better by now.  I can't even imagine what you are going through. Physical pain on top of the other.  Ibi, you are helping those people so much when you go see your Mom.  Wish there were more like you around.  Tell it like it is, sometimes that is what it takes for some of us.  Wake up call!
Bandida, i sure would like to have one of your subs about now.  I practically survived on them while i was in Tulsa last.  I ate just because i had to.  Now it seems that i am home that's all i want to do.  snack, snack and i am afraid to get on the scales.
Pants are tighter so that is a wake up call for me.  Keep on keeping on girls.  
PH, i am going to read step 11 right now.   Hugs to all, Tonya

[Phtartist]

Big hugs to all,  Right back atcha T!

[TJack]

Hey girlies,  I got off my soap box and ran around in the jeep today with the top off.  
I was in such a rut and depression.  But, have been housed up for days.  My sweet hubby said,  go to town and spend some money, go over to your friends and you girls have some fun.  well, I didn't actually have fun, but it was good for me to get out in the sunshine.   Took my mind off my worries.  Then i came home with grocery's and we went to the movies with our friends and to sonic for a milk shake for hubby. I abstained.ha ha  
Bandida, are you staying above water down there?  I sure hope so.  It's either drought or floods it seems like.
Thinking of you girls and my poor Mom.  Bless her heart, she told my brother today that she was in prison and she didn't know what she had done.  It just tears me up.   We will be there the morning of the 3rd, or late on the 2nd.  Have to drive from Dallas to Tulsa on the 2nd.   Our original plan was to spend 2 nights with friends north of Dallas, but that will wait till we head home.  I feel so bad that i am not there.  I want to make it all better for her.  
Y'all have a great Sunday.  I am making my lazy butt get with it tomorrow and we are going to church in the park.  I need that too!   Thanks for all your encouragement and any prayers sent up for my Mom.  I appreciate all of you.  Tonya

[ibizan]

went to visit my mom yestday.She was in a state of agitation/paranoia as Lewy Body Dementia dictates.....went in2 a rant that my sister wouldn't buy her lavendar sheets and she was wanting me to sell her Beanie Baby collection to help her get the sheets!De-focused her off this for e-bay market down for the BB's....her long term is so good....short term like a piece of Edel Lace swiss cheese with all the holes in it.I drive away from her with a mixture of relief that she is safe alive but sad for what this dementia does to ppl.Estelle Getty of Golden Girls.....the cranky mom sufferred with Lewy Body Dementia for years b4 she recently died.So T......ya gotta hang girl.....the journey is b-ginning...nice u have a supportive hub.and the rest of u we'll all just keep chuggin down the ralilroad trax of life......and if our cabooses get derailed we'll just pick ourselves back up and keep chuggin!

[BANDIDA]

Floating in the pool B4 I have to report to WK! 2-10... Not going to get into what a (EXPLETIVE) I have 4 a new Mngr.!!! His problem not mine!   Hope everyone is OK and feeling well T'day!!!!  I will keep on chuggin even if I have a B'Head trying to drag the load down!!! Guess he's never heard of the word STRIKE!!!! Hmmmm then we'll C who the scabs R!   I in everyones best interest and my own will B trying to negotiate with the HYPERMAN!!!!! Catch Ya's later Terry xxxooo

[Phtartist]

I love that, keep on chuggin on down the railroad trax of life.  I see myself going along on the side wheels screeching shootin sparks.  Then I land back down on all wheels but my side wheels are burning.  Ha, that works for me.  ahahaha. I do keep rollin on.  

Love the visual.  What does your train look like.  Interesting, mine was seriously rusty, corroded, but heavy duty and strong. One of those old West trains. Wow, interesting, when I realized thats what I was seeing.

[ibizan]

my train is covered in wearable art...gotta have painted nails/toes 2 match...caboose generous but not too dubl-wide for this 53 yr.old....stuff just naturally spreads and heads south as we age..right girls?Love that Kool and Gang song..used to dance to it loaded..now dance to it sober.....Shake Shake Shake that Booty!C'mon girls u know u can do it very well!:)

[TJack]

Ibi, next time I talk to the psych doc i am going to ask him about the Lewy body dementia.   I talked to the nurse this afternoon and she said my Mom is so depressed the doc will have to see her tomorrow before she is discharged.  Well, he started her on 50mg of zoloft a few days ago and that isn't long enough for any results in my opinion.
I am on 200mg of zoloft and still fight depression.  Church in the park today was great and went to a great restaurant up the river with friends.  Sat outside and ate and had a live band playing.  Beautiful warm day.  Love the outdoors.  So the last 2 days have been good for me.  I tend to want to hole up and that does not help the depression.
I am sorry your Mom was down and not having a good day.  I am trying to prepare myself for anything and everything.   We never know what to expect, by the sounds of it.
I am not looking forward to the journey, but will give it my best.  No other choice.
I am on board this train  of life and will keep on  chugging along.  Thanks girls for all the input.  Bandida, how did it go today?  Maybe the new boss was not around beings it is Sunday.  Choo choo Phartist.  We are all Iron Horses.  Isn't that the old westerns description?  Have a great week girls.  Oh and the best part, No drinking!!  woohoo TJ

[ibizan]

MRI picked up the Lewy Body.I know we ain't seen nothin yet with this..it as progressing as the doc said and we r seeing what he said he would and what i have read....the Alzheimers Association has great literature on this and how to talk to and handle ur loved one.well this choo choo will continue to chug..i have a saying my get up and go many a times feels like it got up and left awhile ago...but i still try to let off a load of pushing thru steam!11-22 will be 25 years no booze/drugs...i will make it...the thought of that is nauseating...i have new kick Edy's fruit bars..they r frozen like popsicle...oolala...coconut cream,lime,grape,orange and lemon are a few favs...got fresh fruit frozen in them..strawberry very good 2!

[Phtartist]

I LUF the CO CO NUT!

Wow T- Your church in the park, the restaurant, live bands, sounds ideal to me. Glad you got out and reaped the wealth of your area.

Raise those endorphins!!!!! :0))

[ibizan]

i make eating a Edy's fruit bar a endorphin raising xperience......lick suck all the good juice out nibble melt in mouth..its like how i did when i was a kid with banana popsicles!Love those darn things.....have 4 boxes in the freezer.......am i an addict?oh yes!now in  a non-harmful way!:)

[TJack]

I can just imagine you eating that Edy's bar Ibi! ha ha  I am on the low sugar round ice cream sandwiches, i guess that is my new vice.  I still love my green tea though.  25 years In Nov.  Wow girl what an accomplishment.  And you did it one day at a time, i betcha.   Yes, i am sure this choo choo i am on is going to be a wild ride.
PH, you are exactly right, enjoy and get the endorphins going.  It was good for me and my soul.  Today is rainy so i guess i won't be running around in the jeep with no top.
But good news is sun is suppose to be back manana.  Hugs to you girls and keep on chugging along.  T

[ibizan]

had a grape one at lunch and a lemon one after dinner.......this is so comical in a good way...went to docs today...they make u get on scale...i thought oh poop i don't wanna look!was 4 lbs liter than last time and i been a real slug bout getting back on the e-xrcise train!oh yes girl..one hour atta time,one day,one month,month after month,year after year......i b gettin older mama but sobriety is damn good!

[TJack]

i just typed up a nice message to you and all of a sudden, poof it was gone.  i don't know what happend.  But, imagine me saying something funny and you will have it.
haha
My mom went home today.  She called me and sounded like her old self.  i will keep posting on how she does.  TJ

[ibizan]

u say a lotta funny things!prayers for u  and ur mom...sometimes my mom is her former self then enter the Dementia Beast.....waxes/wanes!i prefer it wane but life and the ageing (aging) process is not that kind or fair!

[TJack]

i know you are right.  It will progress.  I just pray it is slow in doing that.  We will have to take it as it comes and make the best we can.  Not expecting anything easy.  Just so thankful for where she is right now.  Her mind is pretty good and she is home..  So very happy.  okay, it is early andi am going back to bed.   I an sleepy again now. Meeting at 9:45.  cya later on.  Have a good one and a juicy bar for me too.   T

[ibizan]

my mom was diagnosed going on 3 years ago....it was just as the doctor said with the progression....u have a good day!

[Phtartist]

O, K, Now here's a funny..........TJack wrote, she was running around in the jeep with no top.  OOOOOOh you naughty girl !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahahahaha!!!

had to tease you.  

I know next time I'm in the grocery store I'm buying those Edy's pops, especially since they are weight loss bars....:-)

I try to not do sweets at night, the tug of war is so tough between my mind going towards the kitchen and my body on the couch.  If I'm playing video games, my hands are too busy to eat, but if the ol' man is home, we watch a show or two together and I'm bored, that's when I want to munch.  

I learned to knit to keep me busy, HATED IT.  I make little tooth bears in the cooler months, but I have so many now, I'm giving them away.  I have to find something else to keep me busy.  I do my nails when Mr. poop head is away on business but when he's home, waa waaaa, he hates the smelllll.  I'm mad at him now, he wants a stepford wife, that is not me, most of the time :-)    , he was illogical, I had no patience,I threw a nasty at him, he blew up!  I'm not allowed to be cranky. I ask, give me a break...I feel like **** and let it slip.    Just venting girlsss,,,,,,,,,thanks.

Any hoooo,  i ate a piece, small, but a piece of rocky road fudge last night.  I felt better, inside.  The say chocolate elevates certain chemicals that make you feel better emotionally, especially dark chocolate.

Better living through chemistry.  Its a chemical world.  It's amazing we keep our heads on straight with all of our pressures and the reliefs swirling around us.

[BANDIDA]

Mornin ladies!!! Phtartist you devil.. I'm amazed I didn't catch that about Tjack w/no top on!!!! Hope she put extra sunscreen on her headlights LOLOL. Off t'day after wkin 6 in a row. Gotta go blow 4 my PO and my usual Tuesday check -in. After that I am coming home and floating in the pool (w/top on) and doing not much of anything!!!! Wk tomorrow then I get 2 off. Tom's going out of town this wknd 4 a Pool (billiard) Tournament representing his Moose Lodge w/ acouple other guys. It's in Merritt Island N. of here and we also have friends there that he has not seen in a while. So it will just B me work and my Chillun's (AJ and Oreo). I'll make sure he rents me some movies too. Anyhoo gotta go I'll catch up w/ya's later! Terry

[TJack]

okay, chuckle, LOL and all that good stuff.   Very funny, picturing myself with no top driving around time.   I do believe y'all would have seen me on the nightly news!!  It would not have been a pretty site!
Going to a birthday lunch today for a couple of my friends.  I introduced them 3 years ago and they were both born the same day and same year.  We always do a lunch at the mexican restaurant and sit outside.  The only difference this year >I will be taking the pictures and not having that margarita!!  And the best part is, i don't think it will bother me.   Oh and by the way i will be running around with the top down again.
Y'all are the best.   Have a great one.  Tonya

[ibizan]

ooh bet ur gonna have good authentic mexican food..love it!u have a nice time...and eat a big seafood chimicanga for me with big pile of beans/rice!!!:)and don't 4get the fresh guacamole on everything!

[BANDIDA]

You'll want the top down after that feast UR gonna eat! May not even have to stop to fill up UR Gas tank!!!!  LOLOLOL I just could not resist heehee. Headin out the door 4 work! Can you B'lieve my Boss called me at 5a.m! Ofcourse I did not answer! I did him favors 4 2 Wens. now and what do I get? 1 hour taken off my sched. this week! No more Ms. nice guy! Rolled over and went back 2 sleep!!!! I'm sure I'll here about it here in a bit! Too bad so sad!!!! Catch ya'lls later Terry

[TJack]

Okay, i'm hungry now.  I will probably have the chicken chimi Ibi.  But, plenty of rice and beans and quacamole too. :>)
5 a.m.???WT_???  You need that boss to take a hike Bandi.  Crying out loud!
Reminds me of the mental places in Okla.  Calling me at 6 a.m. and 1:30 a.m.
Hello,  Can you say West Coast Time zone here??  It would have been different if it had been an emergency.  
Off to chow down. Check in with ya later.   Hugs to you both and Ph too and MJ and whoever else needs one.  T

[Phtartist]

What an up thread !!!  I sittin here reading and laughing.  Thanks girls, a pick me up is just what the Dr. ordered.

[TJack]

Hon, i have had some good laughs lately and i have to tell you It is good for the SOUL!!
Lunch was good.   I did not drink.  My three friends each had a cadillac margarita.  I had ice tea and really was fine.  The waiter (our usual) looked at me and said cadillac margarita?  I said, no you never would dance with me so I have switched to ice tea. ha
My friend said GOOD ONE!!  We sat outside and were the only ones out there enjoying this glorious warm weather.   I cannot believe how together i was.  I was multi tasking up there. ha ha  Handing out the presents for the two birthday girls and using two different cameras getting it all on film.  I actually amazed myself.  And I had fun!!!  
So, i am really jazzed!   Hang tough girls.  We can do it!  Hugs, Tonya

[ibizan]

ur darn right we can do it.....and we r!now i'm hungry for mexican!love those chimichangas and the spicy shrimp carne something!

[TJack]

Oh girls, i forgot the best part i did it all with the top down!!  woohoo
Ibi, my pants are getting tight.  Not drinking so i am eating more, snacking often.
Got to get some exercise, which is also good for the soul and body.
Headed out in an hour for nails and then to Eugene, an hour away with a friend to get our hair colored and do a little shopping.  It is gorgeous today and our days are numbered as far as weather goes up here in the northwest.  Actually Sept aned Oct are my favorite months here.  Pretty dry and beautiful.  Then when Nov. comes the wet stuff does too.  You have a great day, all ya girls!  TJ

[ibizan]

sound slike a grey8t day!fall is beginning here with leaves dropping and colors coming but 80 degree weather is predicted all week!i'm taking a vacation day.....so good to away from that office!

[TJack]

Hey girls,
Heading north to Portland this morning.  Fly out tomorrow a.m.   I will try to check this site while we are there.  Taking lap top with us.  Hope you all are having a great Holiday weekend.  Sober and Safe.  Hugs to all.  Tonya

[ibizan]

its in the 80's here....still too hot and humid....leaves starting to turn....ha d a good day doing the shopping thing and got my new boy his special dog food....i refuse 2 attend a 12 step meeting for TJMaxx addicts.....had a good Japanese early dinner.....miso soup,salad, stir fry shrimp soba noodles and fried green tea ice cream for dessert!back 2 work 2 morrow.....ewwwww!get to see my oregon sister this coming weekend....looking 4ward 2 it!

[Phtartist]

So I bought the Edy's bars.  I bought the one's with the creamy center.  Raspberry, lime and orange with vanilla center.  Oh, yea, they are good.  Low in calories, carbs and fat too!

Hope your Labor day was good!

I chilled out, the crowds down here are insane on holiday weekends.  Now we can go on the beach with the pups, Yay!

[ibizan]

i haven't had the ones with the creamy centers..not enuf room in freezer!LOVE the tangerine.....so orangey!had a coconut creme for lunch...stawberry good..i'll hafta try the ones with the creamy centers!we know what good don't we?

[Phtartist]

Siesta time is over girls.  Wassup?  Rough spots over for me.  Nuf said.

How are the Moms?
How's the P.O.?

How's the weather by you?

[ibizan]

my fav Edy's is the tangerine....sometimes 3 bars in one day.....ummmmmmmmmmm...fall is approaching here my fav time of year....trees changeing but we still have hot days...89 yesterday....and rainy/cool now.....TGIF...go home to the critters....they make more sense than the humans....sister in from oregon this weekend...get 2 c her and go visit mom 2 morrow!

[Phtartist]

Wow, Hanna came through today!  Phew!  I was not going out in that.  We ran errands in the morning and then Bam. It was nice to stay in and watch a movie in the afternoon on a Saturday.  My husband always keeps busy busy, today he chilled out, it was nice.

We have a pair of we dogs though. They are so good, they come in when they are done outside and sit and put their paws up for us to wipe their feet.  Thats what I say to them when they come in  "Wipe your feet" and they do!  

[ibizan]

b-utiful weather here....good visit with mom....she got to go to the zoo and loved seeing all the animals!my dogs hold up their feet for me to wipe...my new boy greyhound gently nibbles my nose as i do this..he is a hilarious loving boy!one day i will live in a greyhound commune with a full freezer of Edy's tangerine bars and Amy's pesto tortellini!hey Tjack and bandida u gals 2 darn quiet...whas shakin wit u 2?

[Phtartist]

How old is your new boy?

Thats my Marty, he kisses me and snuggles as I wipe his front paws, my face, neck, then I'm soaked, hahaha.  

Lacey licks my arms, she likes apendages. LOL

Dogs are great!!  Have you seen my pups on my home page?  My memory bites.

Glad you had a great time with Mom.  The Zoo was a wonderful place to go with her.  So happy for you.

Major rain came through here yesterday!! Big time. Today, everything is so clean and refreshed, a little beaten up but none worse for the wear.  My elephant ear is huge and very happy!  They really stand up to anything.  I mean this storm had pretty strong winds.

Wedding is getting closer, shower is next weekend.  I'm feeling stressed inside, and trying different things to get out of that feeling. My video games help :-)
I think getting to the shower early and greeting each guest as they come in, all the former in-laws and old aquaintences head on is my best approach. Its been 25 years. Walking into a room with some of them already there does not feel comfortable to me.  

Thats how this thread helps me.  I just thought of that now. Its as if you are here, and a good listener, LOL

[ibizan]

ur dogs r b-utiful i have seen their pics!my new boy is 2 ..my old gal is 10!i didn't get to go to zoo with mom..they went on a friday morn when i was working....a non-busy time!i got to see the pics!i just love the temps of this time of year.....don't envy u this wedding stuff...we know time flies and it will b over b4 ya know......so true that we spend so much time worrying and stressing about events in our life...then they come and go like the blink of an eye and r gone!

[Phtartist]

Gotcha, if info is not in the box I'm reading, I just remember the basics.  I do remember you are a terrific lady to write with. You always have great words of wisdom when I need them.  

ttyl

[ibizan]

thank u dear..gonna start another thread this one 2 long again!

[Phtartist]

Facing things head on, is a good title.  I was thinking the same thing. LOL All good minds think alike.

That is what I have to do lately because every thing I'm dealing with is in my face.

[Phtartist]

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