This is me also. I always have anxiety out through the year but it seems like when oct nov comes my anxiety gets worse. Last year it was so bad I had a constant chest pressure it started in oct and didn't fully end until the middle of dec . I'm starting to feel weird Again like I'm going to die soon etc idk why it's so scary .
I think I know what's happening to you .you have SAD .it's a seasonal affective disorder. This happens to me to. Your doctor might put you on an antidepressant. Try some light therapy, this might work, got my lamp on Amazon.
I've thought about this, and yes I've noticed a pattern of unfortunate things that have happened in that time frame but I don't know if I would go as far as to say any of them where traumatic
Did anything traumatic happen at this time of year in your past? That can often trigger emotions at the same time of year later on.
The feeling is mutual girl.that makes the two of us...I'm really worried and scared