guys need help with heavy anxiety

[eltoro77]

Hi guys, am new here, i have a situation, i hope you can share some of your time in analysing my case... I had been diagnose with anxiety disorder almost a year now...i had experience every anxiety symptoms . both psychological, emotional and physical.But i had been doing well till to date. I no longer suffer physical symptoms...but recently only emotional and psycological.

Anyways i need some help from you guys...i had an intimate experience with a woman, as far as i recall we didn't have sex..only genital rubbing, i dont recall any penetration happened. after the intimate moment, i was convince that i am ok and had nothing to worry about(std)...since no sex was involve...........until recently (3 wks after the event), i am having thoughts that maybe perhaps i was wrong and that maybe i did penetrate her without me knowing. i know maybe this is irrational......but  I dont know why this thought came up. It has been bothering me till present. My thoughts are if indeed i penetrated her, i would "feel" it happening right? however my mind tells otherwise...that maybe i pentrated her without me knowing it........then i go crazy thinking and thinking again...trying to find out which is the truth.

now for my question....can anxiety create this new thoughts, which is irrational? can anxiety create new "memories" and replacing your previous memories? which can convince you to believe the "new" memories? i had been examining, trying to recall memories to every detail of the event that had happened and i know i did not pentrate her.....but at times my mind tells me maybe i missed some details.

anyways have you guys experince this?????.... if so what did you do?

tnx

[sgately11]

Yep, irrational thoughts of worry about health and life. This is completely normal, well as normal as anxiety makes them. They are in the OCD compulsive thinking category. Just to give you an idea I remember having a one night stand which is out of my general makeup, and worrying about AIDS and actually taking 3 tests even though I wore protection. This compulsive thinking is a sibling of anxiety and actually is the engine that runs the machine. Stop thinking of this and let the thought die, the more you focus the more tweaked your gonna get. Relax.

[eltoro77]

i need ur insights....it would be highly appriciated.

[eltoro77]

so what do you mean?anxiety can invent new thoughts, events, scene which would lead you to believe that it is true??

[erin626]

My anxiety hasn't created new memories that I know of but it definitley makes my memories of bad events seem worse than they actually were. When I was withdrawing from xanax I had a really bad time and I know I felt awful but my mind makes me think I had more severe withdrawl symptoms than I did so when I think about it I get really anxious. I have to remind myself that it was a bad time but that my mind is inventing and even worse memory of it. I hope this helps and makes sense because sometimes I don't even understand it.