ANXIETY IS CONSUMING MY LIFE

[QueenMontana]

I am so tired!!! Tired of living this way! I hide from the world! Whats normal to everybody its not to me! I am scare! Always scare!!!! Fear is always with me!! I get random panic attacks! medications are not working and therapy is useless! I feel out of place all the time! Living like this is the worst and I wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy!! There is no way in finding happiness after suffering for sooooo long!!

[Paxiled]

Remember as we try to help this poster that this isn't really bipolar of the kind Nursegirl was speaking of.  Bipolar 2 is what the poster says it is, which is just depression, and doesn't necessarily need to be treated with antipsychotics.  

[birdie0907]

"I do take my medicatIon on time bit it depress me to have to take meds to feel abt stable."
Does this mean the meds do make you feel stable?

[QueenMontana]

Im taking buspirone 15mg, lamictal 200mg, topimax 200mg, soma when needed naproxen for pain when needed.I was diagnose with bipolar 2 agoraphobia ocd  depression Im taking therapy but is not working out.I requested to change my therapist. I ve been on every medication you could think of. I have no mltivation what so ever. I have lost of memory maybe three suicide attempt in the past. I am currently married with two beautifull girls bt it always seems like that dark cloud is always following me.I do take my medIcatIon on time bit it depress me to have to take meds to feel abt stable.I am 27 years old!

[nursegirl6572]

Hello and welcome!  I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling with anxiety so much.  

Since you didn't give a whole lot of history, I browsed through you other posts to try to find out more about you and your anxiety.  I see from this thread you started that you've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder.:

http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Adults-with-Special-Needs/life-is-tuff-/show/2074587#post_9826891

If you could elaborate a little bit about your history, when you were diagnosed with bipolar, and what your treatment has consisted of, that would be great.  That would enable us to help you a little better.

Bipolar is one mental illness that usually requires medication to keep it managed, otherwise, a lot of secondary issues can arise.  I know that you feel frustrated with feeling like you "have to" take a medication, I can understand that.  I'm wondering if that feeling has maybe led you to not be as compliant with your medication regimen as you should be?  What meds are you on now?  Any other issues, like alcohol or substance abuse problems?  Do you take any other medications, or do you have any other medical problems?  How old are you?  What's been your experience with therapy?  You state it doesn't work, how long were you in therapy, and how frequent were your sessions?  How about your social history, are you married?  Children?  Who makes up your support system?

I hope to see you reply with some more information, so we can help you out.  If anything, know that you're not alone, you're among people who understand how tough it is to live with anxiety every day.

Hang in there.