I feel so helpless

[nervous15]

I am 59 y.o. woman getting ready for my first "put to sleep" surgery.  The surgery is a UPPP, brcause of lack of Oxygen to my brain and heart.  I have a highly recommended surgeon who has taken much time to talk with me.  He explained everything.  I am NOT fearful of his abilities.  Secondly I have to be put to sleep.  Oh my Begeezes I feel like I am going to die.  What does it feel like, OMG the anticipation is killing me.  Here's the clincher.  I have high blood pressure (also a complication from this obstruction).  My blood pressure is controlled by medicine...EXCEPT when my anxiety and fear take hold.  I am due to have the surgery on May 21st and my pressure has been up and down.  I am so scared that I will stroke out!  I cant imagine NOT going through with this as I definately need the surgery.  How do I come to terms with the waiting and the waiting at the hospital, stuck in a bed, with IVS, no where to go!!!  Run!!!!  I am afraid my pressure will be extremely high...OMG what do I do Please someone help.

[nervous15]

I have been cleaning the house all day...got about another 4 hours to go for the living room.   Washing drapes , bilnds, window screens, closets, ceilings, walls, floors, rugs anywhere that dust or my dogs hair may have accumulated.  The front bedroom is finally done!!!  That is the worst room and although it looked clean it really wasnt....but it is now!!!  Yippee.

I am really trying NOT to think about this, so my anxiety is not to bad today.  

I have to clean the living room:  blinds, floors, dust , vacumm the furniture, that room isint very bad.  Once I get done there I will venture into the kitchen and wash everything I can in there.....not bad on dust though..

I better get back to work,  I will check in later on.


BIG BIG BIG BIG HUGZ  (((((((((((HUGZ)))))))))))

P.S.  Wolfie is  FRENCH  Voule Voux!!!!  I cant spell hope you know what I mean


Carole

[nursegirl6572]

How are you doing today?  Feeling any better?

[lonewolf07]

Hi

I guess all that beer and ice cream must have helped some = )

Am still here to give nervous a (((((BIGHUG)))))

and to give Nursegirl a (((((BUGHUG)))))    LOL

TTYL mes cheres amies

wolfie

[nervous15]

I just got home from work.  I am so sorry to here that Wolfie is not feeling good tonite.

Wolfie feel me huggin you (((((Wolfie)))) Hop etomorrow is a better day.

Thanks nursefirl..its getting close.  6 days away... I think I will call the drs office tomorrow... I dont know if it is a cold coming on or allergies....god I hope its just allergies.  do you think they can give me something so if it is a cold coming on they could catch it right away?

Nighty Night

Carole

[nursegirl6572]

LOL...I actually MANY times have typed "BUG HUGS".  A lot of times I just left it, cuz it's kinda cute.  ;0)

Get a good night's sleep....and hopefully you'll feel better tomorrow.

If not...we're here....you know how to start a new thread right?  (that was a joke).

Seriously though...we're all allowed to take turns, ya know!

***goes to order more beer***

Night (again)....for real this time...I'm going to bed.

[lonewolf07]

Hi

Thank you nursegirl.  I hope so too.

Hugs (I nearly typed bugs) to you both.

wolfie