Hello,i was wandering if u can help me? =)
Im a 28yr old male. when i was 21 i started feeling depressed/anxious beacuse i was loosing my hair. all my life some people have put me down beacuse of the way i looked,then when i started to lose my hair people started to make more comments. even though i had my fair share of girlfriends/partners,always had a great network of friends,good social life etc, i started to get real paranoid and self concious with the way i looked and have panick attacks in social situations just waiting for someone to say somthing bad about my appearance and put me down,also be paranoid people where staring at me making me genraly uncomftable in public,also fearing having more panick attacks. i stopped going out with friends at nights and weekends and just concentrated on my work and battled through the anxiety/panick attacks etc. then when i was 23 i lost my job due to jobcuts. then i didnt go out at all felt very depressed at times,sometimes felt like crying and not realy know why,sometimes had trouble talking. i then became either what i think is Agraphobic or have bad Social Anxiety beacuse i havnt realy been out in the last 5 yrs now. im not affraid to go out im not affraid of the open spaces its just im so paranoid about my appearance and dread people making fun of me again that i dont go anywhere at all. my appearance is on my mind alot and i get depressed from time to time and am also constantly tired. ive always remained very in touch with reality and am pretty smart ( i have an IQ of 138) but what realy scares me is at the end of 2006 i woke up oneday and felt i could hear my name being whisperd wich obviously made me paranoid and very scared, thinking i was going totaly crazy. i know it wasnt real and it was all in my mind and me just being paranoid. it lasted about a week then went away. but ever since then ive been so scared it would come back. sometimes i just get so tired,confused,a little absent minded exspecialy when my sleep patterns mess up, i feel like im going to go totaly crazy and im frightend im going to go totaly crazy. i just dont go anywhere beacuse my appearance depresses me, when in social situations my brain 9 times out of 10 just gets paranoid,panicks and tells me to escape the social situation through fear of being persacueted. i can feel totaly normal for long periods at a time and feel ok when on my own doing my thing. i try to stay active and i do alot of weight training/bodybuilding and although i never realy get dressed much im always very clean and have fresh clothes etc,ive not totaly let myself go! lol
i havnt spoke to my GP although i have realy wanted to for years now,and as each year passes its getting closer an closer for me to make that dreaded terrifying call to my GP to ask for help! eeek! lol =s
so could u shed any light on what is actualy wrong with me please? thank u for ure help. =)