So, instead of going into an exhausting and lengthy description of all the things that are wrong with my head, I'll make this as brief as possible. I'm pretty much losing my mind. I suffer from extreme panic, intermittently, and constant anxiety inbetween. I've recently started to develop some physical symptoms I believe are due to the emotionally crushing panic and constant anxiety. More recently I've developed a constant feeling of despair, which you'd think would be related but honestly I feel like it's just a random addition that makes life that much better. I'm talking near constant emotional lows where I could be winning the lottery, look around and realize everything I know and love will one day be nothing and existence is completely meaningless. This has lead to further complications, a cross between anger, depression, but sometimes complete apathy toward everything. My question: I cannot afford therapy (although I'm sure I need a fully qualified psychologist and not a therapist) and I've looked into free/reduced price help stuff to no avail. If anyone has any information, I would be greatly appreciative. Even someone online to talk to, anything at all. Pretty sure Im in a deadly downward spiral right now, and it only seems to be accelerating. I'm looking for free psychologists, communities where you can talk to people with similar problems, any decently qualifies person to talk to online, basically anything at all that could potentially help. Aside from help, I'm also curious about possible diagnosis. I seem to fit part of the way into about 5 different ones, but there's always something that doesn't quite fit. Ie. Bipolar episodes (from what I've read) seem to last months, my brain is much too chaotic for that. Borderline personality seems to be centered around abandonment, one of the only issues I don't feel like I have. Severe panic disorder fits best, but I have way too many symptoms for all that, as of there are multiple disorders... but I feel like having some sort of potential diagnosis (and I say potential because I'm aware I can't get an accurate online diagnosis) would give me some sort of relief, so I'm not constantly assuming brain tumor or whatnot. Again, anything is helpful. Thanks.