I have been there.... hooked on xanax for 5 years,.... doc put me on paxil at the time, I took it for 7 month and stopped everything cold turkey and I was fine, except from stopping the paxil got some electrol volts in my head when I turned too fast.... but only lasted 10 days and I was drug free..... The paxil works for withdrawls you don't need to go to a rehab.
Thank you greenlydia for that beautiful post to addict. I can't believe the prior cold hearted, self centered post's sent to someone in such agony.
abby
First thing I'd do is run as far and as fast as I could from the moron doctor who put a recovered heroin addict on 12mg of Xanax! Do you have any idea how HUGE a dose that is? It's mind-boggling. And with your history of drug addiction, it's my humble opinion he shouldn't have prescribed ANY substance that has the potential for addiction.....which only makes him an even larger moron!
And the booze.....there is nothing I can say......you are obviously aware of the danger of that. Toss in the Klonopin and what you have is a combination that is LETHAL. It's that simple. You say you want to live, but your continued behavior says just the opposite. You need help and you need it bad and you need it NOW! You've tried rehab 5 times and none of them worked...........AA has been suggested but you need to get off the benzos before you can even begin to think about getting (and staying) sober.
My advice.............get with a good psychiatrist! He/she can not only taper you off the Xanax and Klonopin in the correct and safest way, they can help you with your alcohol addiction, monitor your physical and emotional condition and begin to help you understand why you are trying to destroy yourself.
That you posted here shows us that you DO want to live. It also took a great deal of courage to come here and ask for help. I see a great deal of hope for you, but I also see a great deal of work ahead. Just try and remember how good it felt to be off the heroin and know that it's going to feel even better to be off this other S+H+I+T as well. Learning to be clean and sober will be one of the hardest things you do in this life...........but in the end, it will all have been worth it. You are far too young to give up! You've got your entire life ahead of you!
Do visit the Drug Addiction Forum...............you will find much support there. And it was pointed out that while I'm sure you are feeling anxious about your "issues," you never said anything about panic or anxiety. You are more than welcome to post here as often as you want and we'll do our very best to help you, but we know about anxiety and panic and depression, we aren't as up to date with drug addictions like yours.
I know we all wish the very best for you..........you CAN do this. PLEASE do this!
Peace
Greenlydia
HAHAH, I havent had a good laugh like that in a bit, thanks for that
I agree, addict 311 should be posting this under the addiction, rather the anxiety
You wouldn't be Ozzy Osbourne by any chance, would you? That's a lot of medication. You should try the drug addiction forum. It is part of the MedHelp forums. Because that is your problem. Not anxiety.
Don't go to rehab for the benzo's. Rehab's don't know anything about how to properly come off. Much of your depression is caused from the benzo's and the alcohol, both are depressants. The two are a ticket to death. They both work on the same brain receptor's. As you probably already know opiate addict's sometimes turn to benzo's. A A is the only organization with a proven record for getting alcoholics sober ( I don't know if you are an alcoholic) and the benzo's need to be tappered off very, very slowly. I'll pm you and give you a website with info and tappering schedules. Often the address get's deleted (censored) from this forum.
abby
was you on benzos for a reason?
For a person not "wanting to go yet" you sure are asking to go by drinking all that vodka
and taking that ridiculous amount of benzos together, Honestly Im surprised you havent died yet..sorry to say
Honestly Im stunned and out of words to describe what I feel for you, except for shock from what I just read.
That much all together Id highly suggest going to rehab to withdraw safely.
Ive never heard of someone doing that much and not dieing, are you passing out frequently?
I really suggest rehab ASAP, because tomorrow may be too late.