So, a year ago you did edibles and it sounds like a bad experience. Some people do react poorly to THC. Just like all drugs, medication or recreation, everyone reacts differently. Comparing what happens to you to others isn't all that helpful in the big scheme of things. It is one of those, it is what it is situations. Feeling dead in the afterlife and picking fights is not a fun high. Some things just aren't right for 'us' when they affect someone else differently. It's okay. There are other ways to relax. I am trying to understand what you are saying though. After you felt very peaceful similar to ketamine infusions? Similar but different as one is done for that affect on purpose. What's making you think about this a year later I wonder?