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Why does it affect every day of my life?
Why do I have to think about being "different" every single day? Even when I take my meds, which I don't think I really need, it's like a reminder every time that I have to take these apparently to be okay. I have been told that I have BP I by a couple of docs.
But why can't I go a day without being reminded that I'm broken or something and everyone else isn't. You can't crawl inside someone else's head and see what it feels like. How do I know that everyone else feels like me but I'm just the one that said something about it?
How do you feel about it?
But why can't I go a day without being reminded that I'm broken or something and everyone else isn't. You can't crawl inside someone else's head and see what it feels like. How do I know that everyone else feels like me but I'm just the one that said something about it?
How do you feel about it?
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As I sat telling my doctor all the crazy things I've done, it just seemed normal to me. I wouldn't give up my insane life for anything either. There was something my doc asked me though that really helped. She asked, "So what have you done with all that adventure and extremes, what fruit has it produced?' I thought about that a long time. I had to admit, I could hold it together a year maybe, usually less, but all things kept ending for me. I felt like I kept starting over and over. I see this new medication approach as a chance to take the good things about my bipolar life and use it for good. Write a book maybe, feed orphans in war torn zones, or something that "normal" people might be afraid to try. I am not afraid, because I have pushed the boundaries in mania. I have felt the suffering of the world on a very deep level too, which has bread empathy in me. Because I am bipolar I have traits that are really great. I'm not broken, though I felt that way for a long time. I am extraordinary. I would have never known I could live with no money in Calcutta India if I wasn't bipolar. I would have never lived off the land in Hawaii either. I can think outside the box now, with stability, I think my potential is limitless. I feel the same about other bipolar people and addicts as well. We have something special, we just have to embrace it and use it to bear fruit. That's my take on it, today anyway.
This is a "GREAT" answer. I feel like that sometimes. I didn't have anyone to talk to until I discussed this site...just a few days ago. I always feel out of place. Never attending any party at my job or anything for that matter. Just feel out of place. And people (family) quite often remind me of this...since I was a kid. So, when I got in the medical field it was like I "had to face what was PUT im my face. I just pray to stay calm all day. My wife knows alittle even though I have told her ALOT. Staying strong and believing in ourselves is key.
Hi Rogelio. I had a lot of those same questions when the Psychiatrists wanted me to BE BIPOLAR. I even hired different Pdocs to tell me I was just depressed or something. I'd go without my prior history too. After about 5 yrs I joined a free support group for depressed & bipolar & PTSD.
I got to know some of the others. Some smart. Some good looking, not losers. One thing though, as I listened to the input of others in the group, there was no way I was any thing other than BIPOLAR. & it's not so bad. It just means I'm prone to extremes, basically. I can medicate, which I do, or risk the consequences( and as time passes they are harder & harder to recover from. No, I don't like my sex drive munipulated!! I don't like to gain weight when my meds get chAnged. I don't like to pay a copayment for a zillion pills. But I will tell you this, Baby. It's been one hell of a ride my life & I wouldn't trade it for any so called "normal" for all the tea in China.pamela
I got to know some of the others. Some smart. Some good looking, not losers. One thing though, as I listened to the input of others in the group, there was no way I was any thing other than BIPOLAR. & it's not so bad. It just means I'm prone to extremes, basically. I can medicate, which I do, or risk the consequences( and as time passes they are harder & harder to recover from. No, I don't like my sex drive munipulated!! I don't like to gain weight when my meds get chAnged. I don't like to pay a copayment for a zillion pills. But I will tell you this, Baby. It's been one hell of a ride my life & I wouldn't trade it for any so called "normal" for all the tea in China.pamela
Honestly I don't know alot of people that truly feel"ok." I think MANY people are bi-polar and it goes undiagnosed! You are a wonderful person and their is no shame in being different. You are not broken or damaged ... Just takes a little extra help for some of us..
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