I think I am having that right now I feel like pacing the floors and crying profusely. I feel like tearing up everything in the room. Yelling at people, or cutting myself. I am afraid to be alone because I don't want to do any of that stuff. I feel so overwhelmed by emotion it is so intense. I just want it to stop. I feel like not just a roller coaster but the whole dang theame park! Ugh I already called a crisis intervention...I don't know how much that actually helped. I am trying to distracted myself from it, but it is hard! I just took my night time meds I hope it just knocks me out and I wake up feeling better in the morning. I don't know how this happened it just came out of no where, no trigger I just all of a sudden really felt like crying. I feel like I don't want to live like this and can't. I feel like I would rather die. It feels so horrible. ='-(
You're definitely not alone. For me, dysphoric mania is like an adrenaline rush that won't stop. It's not pleasant at all; it's a horrible, horrible feeling.
sux...is that considered a curse word??? :-/
I think I might be experiancing this on some level right now. I just had my first manic episode, and they put me on new meds to bring me down. I am like happy and sad at the same time. I am not super hyper anymore though because the meds are making me sluggish. I am still having the rapid and recurring thoughts too though. It ***** and in some ways I think it is worse than just depression.
my experience is that mania starts euphoric then turns dysphoric later. seroquel helps in this regard.
my experience also tells me that the different atypical AP's like abilify, seroquel, zyprexa, etc...etc... don't function alike. For dysphoric mania I found seroquel best
Yes I do experience myself and I started a thread on it a while back and received some good responses although I didn't know what dysphoria was at the time but I spoke to my psychiatrist afterwards and he said I did experience it:
http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Bipolar-Disorder/Euphoric-Depression-Anyone-Have-This-Experience/show/703296
I usually go through that about 2 weeks before I go completely into my depressed state... I feel like I'm exhausted but my mind is racing a million miles an hour... Or I'll be cleaning my house at 2am crying like a baby... You are definitely not alone!