I feel like I have no hope

[jasmine49]

I have so many disorders, that I'm afraid to have any friends. I am bipolar, ocd, dissociative disorder, agoraphobia, social phobia, panic, GAD, ptsd,pseudoseizures. I am on disability and work pt. No one at work knows about how messed up my mental health is. Will, I ever beable to live a normal life, with all these disorders? I'm so embarressed to be so messed up. I have a dr. and a therapist, but that has been my entire life. I don't know my purpose in life. I feel like no one really knows who I am and that I mean well.

[determined2beatit]

Don't worry, you are not alone. I don't tell people either. I suffer silently! Just think though, ever wonder how many people are hiding their own demons? You are a good person, I agree with everybody else you are you! Your diagnosis isn't who you are as a person. I only tell my very closest friends and you know what? Sometimes I wish I hadn't but then again you find out who your friends really are. People that don't go through what we do cannot really understand. That's why I'm glad I have this forum to relate my true feelings.Don't be afraid to make friends!! They don't have to know! You can have a normal life but only you know how you feel. I find if I don't feel well and it's noticeable, I keep to myself until I feel more confident. people don't really know I'm doing that and I find that they have issues and we deal better than they do!
Hang in there!
Linda

[Barribjorn]

Hey Jasmine,
I agree with Jen, you have to define you not your disorder. I can't say that it is eays or comfortable. My fight with bipolar among other things is getting hard to do these days. I win the defining moment sometimes.

The other thing I really want to add is that we have to truly accept ourselves. Hand over some of it to our higher power, and learn that little steps are sometimes the hardest to make. One other note is, You have to define you reality and comfort zones and understand that the sheer "idea" of normal is really ascue...

[jen21287]

Do not let your disorders define who you are. You have a lot to offer and should not limit yourself because of them. It is a good sign that people at work are not aware of your current mental state, it means you are able to function normally. There is hope, you can overcome those obstacles to lead a better life. I do not think many people know their true purpose in life - we are all along for the ride. Try to find a hobby or something that brings you peace: writing, painting, reading, gardening, volunteering. Sometimes helping other people ultimately helps yourself even more.