INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS

[cookieN]

5 years ago I started suffering from psychotic depression. For 4 years I took an antipsychotic and for 5 years I´ve taken an antidepressant. I quit antipsychotic because it made me gain 50lbs in a month, and caused high sugar problems in the long run. I was doing relatively "well" until last night. I suddenly got this impulse/urge to harm a loved one. It was not a thought, it was a very strong impulse, as if I was possessed, as if I was not in control of my mind. This lasted a minute aproximately and then dissapeared. It was very scary. This morning I woke up feeling "depersonalized", like someone else was inside my body. Now I am ok. The only thing I did differently last night was drink tea, (I am not used to drink caffeine at all). Could this have triggered this? Do you have any suggestions? is there a real danger of harming someone? or is it all in my mind?

[woody9270]

anyone out there--just checking that i am doing this correct

[cookieN]

Hello Run4you:
I´ve been feeling a lot better. Exercise has helped me a lot. I think these thoughts/impulses appear when I am extremely anxious.

[run4you]

Glad to hear you made your appt! Hopefully they can find something to help...

I just assumed you were bipolar because this is the bipolar community...

[cookieN]

I am not bipolar. I suffer from psychotic depression.
It is good you found and antipsychotic that doesn´t make you gain that much weight.
Yes intrusive thoughts are terrifying. I made my appointment.

[cookieN]

Yes definitely praying is something very important to help to get rid of these horrible thoughts.

[cookieN]

It is good to know what things trigger them (example caffeine). I do not take any caffeine daily. So that might have contributed. However like you said, this kind of thoughts are of concern, because in normal people caffeine doesn´t cause this kind of thoughts

[cookieN]

It is good to know what things trigger them (example caffeine). I do not take any caffeine daily. So that might have contributed. However like you said, this kind of thoughts are of concern, because in normal people caffeine doesn´t cause this kind of thoughts

[pawanlearner]

it may just be in your mind, but have the caffine may have triggered a more severe degree od depression. like most things, even depression can be influenced by different things. doctors have been saying that they think that depression is transfered genetically, and since it is in your genes, it can be affected by interactions with different things, like i know my depression gets triggered when when sitting around doing nothing as weird as that sounds but the lack of adrenaline just makes me depressed. so try staying away from cafine, and i am christian so i would say that you should pray, but deffiantly stay away from caffine.

[ILADVOCATE]

  It depends. I can't drink anything with caffeine in it or it makes me extremely manic. Also sometimes tea and some beverages in general have additives that can cause mania such as ginseng or the like. However this could have occurred for other reasons and if thoughts like this occur even in passing they are of concern. Best to explain what happened to your psychiatrist and also discuss what might have caused it and they can tell you what to do from there.