I have it I think part of it is a confidence thing,...I still go out or see people its just,...I'll get into groups and freeze up like I'm unsure of myslef so I even when I think of something to contribute to the converstaion I don't say anything for fear of looking stupid..... when its really bad I'll even tart getting paranoid like oh **** everyone here must be judging me and their against me and I start getting heavy anxiety and my heart just starts pounding in my chest.....but this is espcially true when I feel someone is of higher status you know like that they have more money or education than I do or their sitting around talking about something I don't know alot about then its real awquard and I feel like a total idiot
then people will think shy or quiet....thats not really me whatsoever tho I like talking but it takes me a few meetings with someone to be more extroverted unless I feel we really have some common ground......
definitely. I rely way too much on my husband to get out. I think I'd hide away here if he wasn't around.
Yeah, I get that way. I force myself though. I have to. Not always, because I think that would make it worse if I constantly tried to push myself through it, but a lot of the time when I do push myself I feel better afterward. But there are times when I just HAVE to give myself a break and stay in and be alone.
I sometimes find it to be a struggle just to get out and leave the place I live at, like it'll agitate me if people force me to leave sometimes.
I also am like this unless I just make myself go out and I usually do not unless I go to the mailbox, mow the lawn, or to appointments, etc... Therefore, I definitely know how you feel and it is not a good feeling. I suggest you try to make yourself go out and stop acting like a recluse. I know I am a good one to be talking but I do try.
Yes right now I am basically homebound due to my physical disability but before my current recovery when I was depressed or anxious or paranoid (remember I have schizoaffective disorder) I did want to avoid people or not be around them and often the best thing to do was make myself go out and about and then in doing that I would feel better.