Psalm 88 comes to mind for me:
O LORD God of my salvation, I have cried day and night before thee:
2Let my prayer come before thee: incline thine ear unto my cry;
3For my soul is full of troubles: and my life draweth nigh unto the grave.
4I am counted with them that go down into the pit: I am as a man that hath no strength:
5Free among the dead, like the slain that lie in the grave, whom thou rememberest no more: and they are cut off from thy hand.
6Thou hast laid me in the lowest pit, in darkness, in the deeps.
7Thy wrath lieth hard upon me, and thou hast afflicted me with all thy waves. Selah.
8Thou hast put away mine acquaintance far from me; thou hast made me an abomination unto them: I am shut up, and I cannot come forth.
9Mine eye mourneth by reason of affliction: LORD, I have called daily upon thee, I have stretched out my hands unto thee.
10Wilt thou shew wonders to the dead? shall the dead arise and praise thee? Selah.
11Shall thy lovingkindness be declared in the grave? or thy faithfulness in destruction?
12Shall thy wonders be known in the dark? and thy righteousness in the land of forgetfulness?
13But unto thee have I cried, O LORD; and in the morning shall my prayer prevent thee.
14LORD, why castest thou off my soul? why hidest thou thy face from me?
15I am afflicted and ready to die from my youth up: while I suffer thy terrors I am distracted.
16Thy fierce wrath goeth over me; thy terrors have cut me off.
17They came round about me daily like water; they compassed me about together.
18Lover and friend hast thou put far from me, and mine acquaintance into darkness.
Seems to suit/describe the downside of Bi-Polar/ Depression very well, in my own opinion.
The song "Broken" by Seether often comes to my mind in relation to my Bi-Polar. Kind of like my two sides (Manic & Depressed) talking to each other.
"Broken"
I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
And I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Because I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away, you don't feel me here anymore
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Because I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Because I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
Because I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away, you don't feel me here anymore...
"Wasted Time" By Skid Row comes to mind now and again;
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You and I together in our lives
Sacred ties would never fray
Then why can I let myself tell lies
And watch you die every day
I think back to the times
When dreams were what mattered
Tough talking youth naivete
You said you'd never let me down
But the horse stampedes and rages
In the name of desperation
Is it all just wasted time
Can you look at yourself
When you think of what
You left behind
Is it all just wasted time
Can you live with yourself
When you think of what
You've left behind
Paranoid delusions they haunt you
Where's my friend I used to know
He's all alone
He's buried deep within a
Carcass searching for a soul
Can you feel me inside your heart
As it's bleeding
Why can't you believe you
Can be loved
I hear you scream in agony
And the horse stampedes and rages
In the name of desperation
Is it all just wasted time
Can you look at yourself
When you think of what
You left behind
Is it all just wasted time
Can you live with yourself
When you think of what
You've left behind
You said you'd never let me down
But the horse stampedes and rages
In the name of desperation
Is it all just wasted time
Can you look at yourself
When you think of what
You left behind
Is it all just wasted time
Can you live with yourself
When you think of what
You've left behind
The sun will rise again
The earth will turn to sand
Creation's colors seem to fade to grey
And you'll see the sickly hands of time
Will write your final rhyme
And end a memory
I never thought you'd let it get this far, boy
I never thought, I never thought
You'd let it get this far boy o no
I never thought, I never thought
You'd let it get this far boy no
I never thought you'd let it get this far boy...
Then there is Ozzy Osbourne's "Crazy Train" which is a favorite of my Manic side:
All aboard! Ha ha ha ha ha ha haaaa!
Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay
Crazy, but that's how it goes
Millions of people living as foes
Maybe it's not too late
To learn how to love
And forget how to hate
Mental wounds not healing
Life's a bitter shame
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train
Let's Go!
I've listened to preachers
I've listened to fools
I've watched all the dropouts
Who make their own rules
One person conditioned to rule and control
The media sells it and you live the role
Mental wounds still screaming
Driving me insane
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train
I know that things are going wrong for me
You gotta listen to my words
Yeah
Heirs of a cold war
That's what we've become
Inheriting troubles I'm mentally numb
Crazy, I just cannot bear
I'm living with something' that just isn't fair
Mental wounds not healing
Who and what's to blame
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train.
And topping this off (sorry for the length of this, but the playlist in my head is sometimes like a bottomless pit.) is "Diary of a Madman", also by Ozzy:
Screaming at the window
Watch me die another day
Hopeless situation endless price I have to pay
Sanity now it's beyond me there's no choice
Diary of a madman
Walk the line again today
Entries of confusion
Dear diary I'm here to stay
Manic depression befriends me
Hear his voice
Sanity now it's beyond me
There's no choice
A sickened mind and spirit
The mirror tells me lies
Could I mistake myself for someone
Who lives behind my eyes
Will he escape my soul
Or will he live in me
Is he tryin' to get out or tryin' to enter me
Voices in the darkness
Scream away my mental health
Can I ask a question
To help me save me from myself
Enemies fill up the pages
Are they me
Monday till Sunday in stages
Set me free
I AM JUST LIKE YOU
Do not be afraid, I won't hurt you
You see, I am a person too
I have a plan filled with hope
Yes, I have an illness, and I must cope
Please don't feel sorry for me
I am just like you, that's the key
We all have good days and bad
There is help for me, don't be sad
I must take medication every day
But, that doesn't mean I cannot play
I want a job, a family, to be a wife
To be married, a husband for life
I believe in God, same as you
Best of all, He loves me too
Don't treat me different at all
I am a friend, so give me a call
Lunch or a movie sure would be nice
You definitely won't have to ask twice
I am thoughtful, and a good friend
Now that you know, don't make this the end
the past by sevendust
Beneath the water
that's falling from my eyes
lays a soul I've left behind
the edge of sorrow was reached but now I'm fine
I've filled the hole I had inside
I'll pray it doesn't scream my name
so I light a flame and let it breathe
the air that kills the shame
I'm up
I'm down
like a rollercoaster racing through my life
I've erased the past again
a risky morning
I feel like I'm alive
I can't believe I've made it through this time
the edge of sorrow I lived in for some time
(lived in for some time)
has left the hole I have inside
The burden is I try my hate
was the last thing I ever felt
or thought I could escape
I'm up
I'm down
like a rollercoaster racing through my life
I've erased the past again
[x2]
You let me in then broke me down
the difference is this time around
I will not let you see me try
I'm up
I'm down
like a rollercoaster racing through my life
I've erased the past again
[x2]
Erased the past again now
Erased the past again
Beneath the water
that has fallen from my eyes
Violently Happy by Björk
since i met you
this small town hasn't got room
for my big feelings
violently happy! 'cause i love you
violently happy! but you're not here
violently happy! come calm me down
before i get into trouble
i tip-toe down to the shore
stand by the ocean
make it roar at me : and i roar back
violently happy! 'cause i love you
violently happy! but you're not here
violently happy! overemotional
violently happy! i'll get into trouble
real soon - if you don't get here - BABY
violently happy! 'cause i love you
violently happy! i'm aiming too high
violently happy! it will get me into trouble
violently happy! i'm driving my car
too fast - with ecstatic music on
violently happy! i'm getting too drunk
violently happy! i'm daring people
to jump off roofs with me
only you can calm me down
i'm aiming too high
soothe me
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I'm so Tired by John Lennon
I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink
I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink
I wonder should I get up and fix myself a drink
No, no, no
I'm so tired I don't know what to do
I'm so tired my mind is set on you
I wonder should I call you but I know what you would do
You'd say I'm putting you on
But it's no joke, it's doing me harm
You know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brain
You know it's three weeks, I'm going insane
You know I'd give you everything I've got
For a little peace of mind
I'm so tired, I'm feeling so upset
Although I'm so tired I'll have another cigarette
And curse Sir Walter Raleigh
He was such a stupid git
You'd say I'm putting you on
But it's no joke, it's doing me harm
You know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brain
You know it's three weeks, I'm going insane
You know I'd give you everything I've got
For a little peace of mind
*********
Björk and Lennon are two kindred spirits.
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Years ago I was on the U campus and someone shouted, "hey Kurt" at me. This was before his death. At the time I looked pretty much the same. My sister had commented a few years prior that she had seen some guy on MTV who looked like me. I ran home and shaved my head.
Lithium
I'm so happy 'cause today
I've found my friends, they're in my head
I'm so ugly, that's OK
'Cause so are you, broke our mirrors
Sunday mornin' is every day
For all I care and I'm not scared
Light my candles in a daze
'Cause I've found God
Yeah!
I'm so lonely, that's OK
I shaved my head and I'm not sad
And just maybe I'm to blame
For all I've heard but I'm not sure
I'm so excited, I can't wait
To meet you there and I don't care
I'm so horny, that's OK
My will is good
Yeah!
I'm not gonna crack
http://www.fifthindependent.com/ssa/30-Cavernsofmadness.mp3 (Caverns of Madness)
It was for a game I'll probably never be able to make but it's "really symphonic" as someone told me. I do all kinds of music really from experimental to game to rock.
I think it would be cool if you posted a link to your song.
Well I think The Wall by Pink Floyd is a good representation of severe mental illnesses such as bipolar disorder or schizophrenia, as well as other problems. Particularly the line "I can't explain, you would not understand, this is not how I am." is a good one since trying to explain it to someone without the respective mental illness is like trying to describe colors to a man who was born blind. I don't know about any but I'm sure there have been at least a few songs specifically written which directly mention bipolar disorder and discuss it in the lyrics. I also made a song which I call bipolar because of how it switches between a light cheerful tone to a tone filled with sorrow in the music of it and in some parts has a mixture of both at once; I can post a link to it if anyone wants to hear it.
Yes I like Sylvia Plath as well. I remember reading the "Bell Jar" a while back. The particular songs I associated with depression in the past were Nirvana "Lithium" when I felt a bit knocked out by what I was taking. Jimi Hendrix "Manic Depression" when I could not get things under control. Now I would add Kristen Hersh "Your Ghost" and P.J. Harvey "White Chalk" when I feel cut off from society. "Paranoid Android" by Radiohead when I feel I am losing touch with reality. I would add this poem by William Carlos Williams:
"According to Brueghel
when Icarus fell
it was spring
a farmer was ploughing
his field
the whole pageantry
of the year was
awake tingling
near
the edge of the sea
concerned
with itself
sweating in the sun
that melted
the wings' wax
unsignificantly
off the coast
there was
a splash quite unnoticed
this was
Icarus drowning"
It reminds me in one sense not to try to take on the world as I feel when I am grandiose and also that people and society should be engaged because they may or may not specifically care about you unless you directly approach and work with them.