I have bipolar 2 disorder. You?
That is a loaded question....
When I am depressed, I don't want to be around people. Everything about me makes me feel like ****. I want to cut myself, fantasize about cutting off limbs, or just kill myself. I can't stand to look in the mirror. I can't stand people that I loved the day before. This is why the 2 girls that loved me in this life called me "complicated". I would quit a job if I had one. I wouldn't go in and quit I would just not go in, not call, and avoid them at all cost. After some time I would then go back asking for a job. I did this several times at several jobs. lol
When I am manic. I want to be around everyone. I start organizing everything, talking to everyone I see, talk down to people I think talk too slow, feel like I know more than anyone else in the world. All of this can be going on at the same time but if I am cleaning or talking to somebody I don't like it when somebody interrupts my euphoric feeling or walks up and interrupts me, I get fighting mad. I feel like the most beautiful thing in the world, I believe I can heal people with just my smile. I pace around while thinking and touching each finger on both hands to the thumb tips on each hand. If I hear something like a rythm or even people talking I try to look for patterns in it and touch my finger tips to that. If I have nothing else to listen to I am either fantasizing or counting. I get overwhelmed if I walk into a room that is dirty. I will be able to concentrate very well and all sports or anything I do I pick up quick and can't remember how to do most of these things when I come back down.
That is pretty much a short version of it, it may be more than you asked for. lol
To answer your question that I didn't see earlier I have bipolar 2 disorder. The low are really bad but I don't get euphoric highs. My manic state is usually either irritable or restless or both. I also cycle faster than bp 1. What about you? What symptoms do you have?
I am glad you cleared that up because I would have likely been stuck on that sentence for a while. I read it three time then understood what I thought it meant then I read your other post and I was like OOOHHH. Funny lol
I am glad he got to come home for Christmas I was in Afghanistan during Christmas of 2009.
Getting help. Sorry. Brain fog