Tantrums

[livefreewithlove]

Has anyone ever thrown a tantrum on somebody and not known what happened until after. I did that on my boy friend. I yelled and screamed and him about amonth ago. I didn't remember much about it until he told me what happened. Iras shocked and frightened by my own behavior.  Have any of you ever lost control like that?

[Bubulous]

I love that.  It makes me happy to see somebody when they are happy.  Salvage this time and feed it by spreading it to people you care about or people who need a pick me up.  SO EXCITED!!!!

[livefreewithlove]

:) I feel really good right now. I haven't felt this good in a long time!

[livefreewithlove]

Got it. Thanks. I needed that. Just like I need a push sometimes just to get up and go outside. Even if all I do is go lay out in the sun. I never knew sunlight had healing powers until I felt it for myself. It's like a whisper from God letting me know he loves me and that I have the power to overcome anything with his help. Don't mean to sound preachy I just feel so good right now  I want to tell it to the world!

[Bubulous]

I am not scared of my anger.  I need it.  If I didn't feel true anger I could never experience true compassion.  That will make sense to you one day.  You may feel like a monster but if you look at it differently you won't.  What makes you angry right now is your understanding of evil.  I am going to send you a message....

[livefreewithlove]

My mom set me off really bad last night. Not really her fault but she was in a bad mood and decided to vent on me and her boyfriend. I had to go to my room and lock the door and hope she didn't try to follow me. Immediately after that I got really scared because of how angry I got. I scare myself a lot with my anger. I don't like it when I'm acting like a monster.

So what do you do over there if you don't have a job? Any hobbies? I like to read and take walks and go watch my friends grandiose play baseball

[livefreewithlove]

I keep track of it. So long as I keep taking the sertraline I don't swing as bad. It helps a lot with the depression but not so much with the mania. I'm trying to get in to see the psychiatrist but the only good one in town is booked and isn't taking any new patients. I actually felt good enough to get off my butt and clean my room today. It doesn't look like hurricane Christine came through anymore.