Am I going crazy?

[mommadebunch]

Recently my husband and I have gone through a horrible tear in our relationship.  It has been building for some time, but last week I discovered I have chlamydia.  I confronted my husband and he completely denies cheating on me leaving me complete distraught and questioning what I know is true about myself.  The following day we both went to med check and he was tested and issued meds to treat himself.  He swears that I must have caused this but I vow on everything that I did not cheat or do anything of my knowledge to cause this infection.  After we left the office, my husband convinced me that he was willing to move on even though he told me that he still thought I had cheated.  I have done nothing wrong and even though I know that, he has basically convinced me that this is still my fault.  He had me feeling so bad that he convinced me to go purchase him a car with a check I had received that day.  He stated that if I did not continue on with our plans to put a downpayment on a car with the money, as we had discussed before I had discovered I had contracted chlamydia that I was not willing to work on our relationship and move on.  I did not want to buy the car, but he had me feeling so helpless and confused that I did purchase him a car.  I woke up the following morning angry with myself and swearing to myself that I would not allow him to make me feel that way ever again and planning on attempting to return the car.
  The confusion and frustration escalated to the point that yesterday morning, my husband got angry at me and started accusing me of cheating and being a *****, etc, etc. after I would not give him any money.  We were in the parking lot of our apartment.  After he came up to my van window while our children watched and continued to berate me, I decided to get out of my van and walk over to his truck and put my finger in his face and tell him that he is never to accuse me of doing such a horrible act again.  I cherish my family and believe that infidelity is one of the largest sins.  He made me so mad that I 1/2 swung on him, but more attempted to slap the top of his head.  I should not have made that action and I now feel horrible about it because I put him into such a rage that as I walked away from the truck, he slammed it into reverse and he hit me with his truck.  I fell to the ground next to the truck as he continued to back up.  I attempted to get into my house and get my phone without him touching me, but he followed me into the house and kept holding me down and yelling at me to stop.  The police were called and he was asked to leave.  I did not press charges because I feel like I should not have attempted to slap him and I should have just left for work and allowed him to freak like he was doing without me there.  
  That evening, my husband admitted himself into a mental health facility for inpatient treatment.  Today he shared with me that they have diagnosed him with bipolar disorder.  I also have bipolar disorder I and take Lexapro once a day.  I have tried seroquel, but I hate the side affects and have stopped taking it.  I feel pretty level just with the Lexapro and see my counselor once and sometimes 2xs a month.  
  I am now scared of my husband.  I don't know if I believe that he didn't cheat.  If he could hit me with his truck, how can I believe he would cherish me enough to not cheat?  He has made me feel so bad about the entire situation that I feel like I cheated and like I caused all of this which makes me very mad because I know that I did not.  Tomorrow I can go and visit him and I am looking forward to it, but also have much anxiety over how I will feel when I leave.  I do not understand why he has not admitted to what he has done.  Its like his disorder is a different shade of mine that includes skilled manipulation.  Is it out of line for me to address my concerns with him while he is in there and then leave him without the ability for us to talk about my concerns.  He wants me to accept a far fetched idea about how we contracted chlamydia and even though I want to trust that my husband did not cheat and move on from this issue, at the same time I feel like I need and deserve an explanation and should express my concerns over his manipulative attitude while he is there where he can talk with a counselor through his anger.  I really hope this makes sense to an extent that I don't seem crazy because I feel crazy.

[adel_ezz]

I wouldn't put much emphasis on chlamydia now. Since both of you are BP then while in a manic episode anything can happen. The important thing is to fix the wreck caused now to the family especially that you have children, police intervention, etc....

[paranoid_cataclysm]

Well some men who cheat will not admit to it even if they're caught doing it or so I read anyway, I wouldn't know from personal experience....... or WOULD I?  BAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHA