bipolar or something else?

[bug0226]

i was diagnosed with bipolar at a young age, in my teens. i wonder whether Its bipolar, something else or something on top of bipolar. I'm super sensitive to medS. i always throw then up. no matter what it is. i dont notice mood swings just swings in my daily living. eating, sleeping, cleaning, so on and so forth. I'll go 5 or 6 days with a few hours of sleep literally. then 5 days of sleeping 12 or 14 hours a day. eating the same thing. nothing for days then everything. i cant make decisions. from simple things like when to shower or cook dinner to the other extreme of  whether to go to the Dr for something severe. when i do something Its done to very fine detail or it frustrates me. I'm in a situation now where i want to live with my boyfriend and get married have a family then a week later i want to move in with my mom and go to school. i cant live like this anymore. my thoughts are never the same from day to day. i feel like a completely different person everyday just in the same body. my family fears i wont get anywhere in life doing this. i dont know who i am anymore. input from anyone would help. please.

[KayWren]

Hey-sounds like you need to have your meds adjusted. After 7 years and multiple meds, I finally am stable on Lamictal.  What you are describing sounds like one of my mixed/mania episodes. Do you have a good doc?

[lindahand]

Some medication you can now take sublingually (under your tongue) maybe that is something to look into with your pdoc.

[bug0226]

Thats exactly how i feel.  Just could never perfectly explain it. What do u do with those feelings? I could sit Android debate on something for days. Do u just stop debating and. Act on your first thought? Its definitely frustrating. Never knew j hendrix was bp interesting fact.

[anjaylah]

I get like you do on occasions, at least once a week that I can recall.  I waste so much time just arguing with myself over the stupidest things,  I almost become paralyzed. It is frustrating because I know what I want but I continue to argue and rationalize with myself. I HATE IT.

I went to 2 separate docs and both deemed me BP II.
Reminds me of Jimi Hendrix who was BP as well
" Manic Depression"
Manic depression is touching my soul
I know what I want but I just don't know
How to, go about gettin' it
Feeling sweet feeling,
Drops from my fingers, fingers
Manic depression is catchin' my soul
Woman so weary, the sweet cause in vain
You make love, you break love
It's all the same
When it's, when it's over, mama
Music, sweet music
I wish I could caress, caress, caress
Manic depression is a frustrating mess

[bug0226]

thank you for your support. all i do is think but i feel i have different wants and morals everyday! Its soo confusing.

[outboundcorruptor]

hey im sorry that sounds really frustrating. im guessing it could be the bipolar together with your personality. you should take some time to really think things through and know what you really want.  therapy helps.  feel better :)