Help!!!

[mommy_2_be_again90]

Hey everyone... i was diagnosed with Mabic Bipolar Disorder in 09.. I absolutely hate taking the medicine because of the side effects.. i haven't been on any since Dec 09 because i got pregnant... I just lost a baby in Aug due to early labor and make medical complications... My Bipolar has really startd acting up the part few weeks... is there anyway to manage it without the medication?!

[schizofriendia]

Bipolar disorder has very different rituals of cycling that varies from person to person.  As adel_ezz suggested, the best path would be to consult a doctor.  Specifically a psychiatrist if you can get into one.

[adel_ezz]

it's hard here for people here to suggest certain drugs. you need to consult a pdoc instead and you SHOULD. In a state of mess where you are now you've got to see a pdoc.

If you are determined NOT to see one, then I suggest 50mg of seroquel at night until you can make up your mind and become alert enough to see things clearly. I gather 50mg won't harm you and will be a sleeping aid as well and will lessen your mania.

But if your mania is strong then a pdoc can put you on some typical AP until you plunge into lower mood then he uses some mood stabilizer. There are many schools in medicine each with different perspective about BP.

To cut it short you need to either go to a pdoc or direct yourself to a hospital in such an acute situation. Sure you are insured

[mommy_2_be_again90]

I haven't been on any since 09... and i know i need them really bad right now... i don't usually share allot of my life with people but hell i dont really no yall lol... first of all, i am very very big on routine... i have had to be on a routine since i was a little kid. Or is like i can't function properly... especially when I'm manic.. i stay in the manic stage usually for 3-4 weeks then deep depression a few days then "normal" then sky rocket back up... wen im manic, i dobt have a problem with spendibg money, but i have a (tmi) huge sex drive... i am also a recovering addict.. havent touch any hard drugs since March, right before i got pregnant... now since i lost her is mainly alcohol n weed.. which is different for me because my drug of choice was a major upper...  so i know something is going on because now i have never been a "downers" person.... uppers seem to level me out wen im manic.. a sense of "normalcy"... until i come down then i have alot more to deal with then in the start...

Please someone please tell me if I'm the only one or if this is considered bipolar normal... a majority of the time, i have recently noticed, but i am having a really hard time differentiating reality from wats n my head.... does that make since?? kinda like i cant tell sometimes what real and what fake... for instance, i already have huge huge attachment issues... i don't take to people, especially men, very easily... but i found a really awesome guy that puts up and helps me through allot of my ups n downs... but it's like if he says one thing in the wrong way or i take it a totally different watt then he meant ill flip out.. n swear up and down his is messing with my head... that he's playing me.. when i know he isn't... idk if its from past abuse or what...

But right now i feel like i am literally losing my mind... it is getting super hard to deal with... i don't know any Dr where I'm living now and honestly drs scare the sh!t out of me... but i just can't keep on... i feel like I'm crashin and crashing hard.... my mind is spinning and i just dont know what's real anymore...

[schizofriendia]

Oh sorry, I misread your original posts.  Why are you trying to go it without medications?

[Skullcherries27]

Hi, I have Bi-Polar I, I was diagnosed 5 years ago and I now take a combination of Lamictal 200 mg and Haldol 2 mg, daily. I have had alot of stressors lately and decided to get off my medication (I don't know why) but I did and created a huge mess. I haven't slept in days, I guess I am going through a manic phase which usually entails taking on large projects and spending money I don't have. When manic, I am very volatile and angry. Everything pisses me off, even the smallest thing. I just started up my medication again but I think meds are part of a lifelong process due to Bi-Polar. I've tried giving it a go several times without medication but my life and everything around it usually just falls apart, I get suicidal and create big messes. Maybe you should switch medications or see a good psychiatrist. I understand how you feel but for me, no medication makes me crazy and I'd rather just sleep and be kinda normal and take my meds.

[mommy_2_be_again90]

I'm not pregnant anymore... lost her at 22+5

[schizofriendia]

Sounds like you're in a mixed state which can be extremely dangerous.  I've heard of medications that are safe to take during pregnancy but I can't remember what.  Pregnancy is something that can throw bipolar sufferers for a loop due to hormonal changes.

[mommy_2_be_again90]

Im extremely manic right now haven't slept much in weeks... i usually stay manic.. very rarely hit a bad depression or down moment... built my mania has hit a very low low slot... is like I'm highly manic but deeply depressed at the same time... i haven't ever had this combination before and not sure how to handle it... i just don't know... since i lost my daughter i cant think.. i had her 8/22... my sons birthday is 8/30.. and i forgot!! I had it totally stukm n my head that he was born 8/31!!! HE WAS ONLY TURNING 2!!! It totally broke my heart... my head is just spinning... i hope I'm marketing sense to someone... cause i feel like I'm talking in circles... sorry..