wanna die

[alreadydead2yrsago]

I just took 10 pills or ribavirin(400 mg) one shot,and will take my pegasys shot now..I wonder is it gonna kill me! Is it enough to kill me or just gonna be hospitalized and got severe anemia and bleeding!

I wanna die badly,my life is misery,my parents passed away last year after 2 yrs of suffering both from cancer,I live with my brother,he has beaten me directly after my both parents death and force me to break up with my boyfriend and I went into a nervous break down....then I get engaged month later to another guy and figured out I have hep c...now he broke up with me,I'm always alone,this medicine make me unable to be friendly or to talk or move,my full time job is Ruined uop,dun wanna go to work anymore,it's my 7th shot...my fiancé can't handle my pain,hates me,fed up and was never there,he broke up with me,it's not about him,I dun give a damn for him,he was already making me feel lonely all the time and never hugged me when I'm in pain,he is an ***,I'm extreme lonely and my life is misery. I'm in PAIN

[Trish77]

Sometimes....there comes a time when you need to learn to lean on yourself.  Other people want to help but they have lives to live also.  Even if they say they will help, when the time comes, sometimes it's a bit much for them.  

Sometimes it helps just to talk about it.  I hope this helped get it off your chest.  I think you need to really have the courage to make changes for yourself.  I don't know what is available to you in your country for supports, here there are women's shelters and counsellors. I think it's not easy being a young single woman in an Arab country...but there is always a way and I believe you will find it.  One step forward at a time.  Good luck.

Oh....and how many mg are your ribavirin pills?  FlGuy makes a good point...200mg or 400mg or...?  How much total dosage have you taken?

[willbb]

this is where I feel safe,whenever I read ur posts and see the support all around,i feel here that there r ppl who can know what I feel...

Yes we do.   lots of good people here to help you thru...

[alreadydead2yrsago]

I'll hit my therapist tomorrow if today passed well,thanks research monkey

[curiouslady1]

Doctors can help you with your feelings. They have medicine for that.   Let your doctor know how you are feeling and ask him also for another doctor to talk to.  

[researchmonkey326]

Since Im not familiar with life as a woman in an Arab county, any of the rest of you know what services are realistically available to her?

[alreadydead2yrsago]

Thanks trish,appreciate your kind words and support and thank you all for being here..this is where I feel safe,whenever I read ur posts and see the support all around,i feel here that there r ppl who can know what I feel...

I have mixed thoughts,I always have strong will for success and life..but now I'm collapsing,I'm giving up...I can't find anything beautiful,even my fiancé that I loved and tried much to lean on him hated my load and my tiredness. I'm sorry for being talkative,I'm just tired.