I am so tired, my Provigil isn't even helping that much. On my trip to the beach, I took a whole Provigil daily ($15 each) and it barely helped. We were on the third floor, no elevator, and could only sometimes park so we only had to walk up one flight of stairs.
I know I'm deconditioned from having less energy to exercise, but this was rough. We unloaded that car on the bottom level and hauled stuff up all those stairs, and it wiped me out. I recovered after some rest and went back out, had a nice dinner at Tidal Raves
Did some running around over the next couple days, shopping at the outlet mall (found some nice clothes at great prices), but got overheated going from cold-windy-rainy to very warm store, too many people, felt like I couldn't take another step,
A great storm blew in, with 20 - 30 foot waves, raining sideways, high winds. I would have been content to view it from the room, but roommate wanted to go places. I walked on the beach a little during the storm, had a great time, took awesome pictures, but it wore me out. There was a guy trying to kite surf in a short wetsuit; the water is 49*!
I bent my New Years resolutions eating giant cookies and pizza from this quaint shop called Humble Pie, where the owner did all the cooking. Roomie had one of his eclairs; nearly the size of a sub sandwich, with bittersweet chocolate on top; he trained at the Culinary Institute here in Portland and was very good at what he did; had a sandwich from there one night that was good, could have been two meals.
The bed I had over there was rough on my body; don't know if it was that or all the stairs and riding in the car, but my nerve pain on my right side flared up. I slept a lot, but was still fatigued.
Monday I gave myself my 10th Avonex injection, the first truly full dosage. Tuesday was a non-day; I read, ate things easy to prepare, and slept. I forgot to write in my food diary, forgot what I had read in my latest Patricia Cornwell novel; had to backtrack and re-read some when I picked up the book today.
I thought today would be better, took half a Provigil so I could run some errands. After taking my shower, I lost my balance and banged my left knee on the corner of the wall, heard an ominous sound, put arnica gel on the bruise. Later, I took a chunk of skin off a knuckle with a clutzy move, forgot about it until I was looking at meat in Thriftway and used some hand sanitizer; ouch!
Saw a Mercedes in the parking lot with the license plate "Clutzy", laughed, thought it should be mine, lol!
I picked up Fluffy's thyroid medicine, and found I'd had enough, went home, finished my novel, called and ordered my refill of Avonex, did one load of laundry. My roommate called and asked if I wanted to run errands and get someting to eat; yay, don't have to worry about not cooking the half-planned pork and hominy stew until tomorrow.
I looked at the forum, but couldn't formulate much in the way of responses to people, though I wanted to. I feel like I'm floating outside looking in, and I think its fatigue that has me in this bubble. The Avonex rep asked me if I'd felt down or depressed in the last 30 days, and I said no, just in the total fatigue of the day after my injection.
I've experienced depression before, and this isn't it. I hurt; the Lyrica isn't taking care of the nerve pain and I'm concerned that adding Tegretol during the day would add to my fatigue.
I've had to repeat to myself Quix's comment "I have become much happier now that I have resigned as General Manager of the Universe" (love that!), as being so tired and in pain makes me cranky and I'm finding I'm being too judgemental.
I have a list of things to accomplish, and I'm checking them off slowly. I have to do a rent review for my low-income housing; take in all my receipts and stuff, and there's a new manager, so it should be an onerous experience. I have less than a week to prepare; think I'll just take in the stuff from my food stamp review; that gave me maximum food stamps; maybe my rent will go down. I also have an interview for energy assistance, rescheduled because of the snow, then I see my gastro, then my MS neuro, then my PCP.
OK, I'm tired just writing about it, and I'msure a lot of you felt your eyes crossing and had to stop reading. This is taking forever to type because of my typos and needing to fix them; bet some made it through.
So, does the trauma of an Avonex injection flare up symptoms? It seems like my right-sided nerve pain has been flaring regularly, after my colonoscopy, during and after my toe infection, somewhere in there was my H1N1 shot, too.
Any tips? Fresh air, small walks even when I don't feel like it, naps? Take the Tegretol and reduce the pain, since I take a low dose and I should get used to the sedating effect quickly?
I haven't made it to an MS support group; seems like all the ones around here are on Tuesdays, my non-days for now. Next week I have to give myself my shot on Tuesday night because of appointments; maybe I can make it to the noon group after my rent review if the new manager is familiar with the process (I've been doing it for 13 years).
My words just seem to keep wandering out of me, so I'll say enough for now; love to hear from you all. Know that I'm thinking about you, even if I'm not responding to your posts, sending notes, or uploading my new pictures.
Hugs,
Kathy