It will get better hun, I always think "what if", and in the end, what if you leave him? you'll eventually move on from this and find someone that will really treat you right, and end up happy, and what if you decide to stay and work it out? then you get some marriage counseling and work on issues that you two have, and it will be a struggle, but in the end, if it's your husband that you want, then work for it. You will end up happy in the end no matter what.