Oxycontin Withdrawal Hell

[discretekarma]

I was prescribed 20 mg Oxycintin x 3 a day about 6 months ago due to having 2 ruptured discs in my back.  My body started getting used to the meds so my doctor moved me up to 3 x 40mg a day.  After a while of this, my body started to get used to this as well.  I told me doctor about what was going on and he didn't change my meds this time.  I was in pain and going in to withdrawal in between doses so I began to take 4 a day even though my script was only for 3.  I was able to get my prescriptions early for a while and now this has cought up to me.  I had a 30 day script but since I filled it two weeks early and was taking 1 extra a day it ran out 3 weeks early.  Yesterday my script ran out and I went to my appt. I knew he wouldn't write my script 3 weeks early since it was only a 4 week script so I told him I lost my script.  He said he wouldn't write me another and that all he could do is write me a 10mg x 3 a day script.  That meand I'd be going from 160mg a day to 30mg a day.  I had a few panic attacks in the day or two before my appt while trying to ween myself down.  Since yesterday I've taken enough of the 10mg to keep myself from having another attack.  I think I've been taking aroung 100mg per day instead of 160mg.  I can't keep this up since my new script will end in about a week which is still 2 weeks short of getting a refill.   I told my wife what was going on this morning since I am so scared of facing another panic attack when the severe withdrawal starts back up. I've read stories about this taking 2-3 weeks to be over.  I am so scared.  My wife told me she's going to talk to my doctor before deciding what to do.  I'm don't think he'll care about me being in pain or withdrawal or anxiety as long as he doesn't get in trouble.   I've asked my wife to let me go to a methadone clinic near my house but she thinks I should just go through it since I am the one that did this to myself.  I'm really scared and don't know what to do.  Thanks for any advice or support.

[discretekarma]

I went to my pain management dr yesterday with my wife.  I owned up to lying to him and also told him about my concerns with him not helping me when I asked for it.  He decided to put me on Kadian 30mg x 1 a day and 2 x 10mg percocet for bt pain.  So far the Kadian hasn't done anything to help my pain so if it still hasn't helped with my pain by tomorrow I'm going to call him.  

[discretekarma]

I have those patches already.  I think the patches that I had are called Lidoderm patches.  They did absolutely nothing for me accept aggrivate the heck out of me when they kept coming off.  

[traveladdict]

Try a lidocaine patch it is a non narcotic for local relief.  It is at least worth a try.

[oxyaddict420]

I have used the patches(never abused them), but then also have had friends, and family on them and have watched the withdrawls from them bring a 300lb man down to his fetel postion and cry like a baby!  THE PATCHES ARE EVEIL LIKE OXY'S!

Have you ever maybe thought of looking into suboxone as a pain management tool as well as being able to make sure that you wont, and cant abuse it or anything esle as well while on it?  I am sure this isnt the #1 reason for it, but I am sure like everything else it might be used for that situation if it is called for and dr approves it..

[GoingToMakeIt]

Everything I've heard about the patch is awful. W/D is horrible and last for weeks. There is methadone but that is horrible to get off of too.

[discretekarma]

Does anyone have a recommendation on a medication that won't have the ups and downs that I've had on the Oxy? Would a different med be better? How about a patch?

[GoingToMakeIt]

The horrible chronic pain doesn't have a good answer here. I wish it did.

[discretekarma]

The main problem for me is that I need a two level fusion and workers comp is denying it and sending me to PT instead.  I'm in so much pain all the time that it's just crazy.  I don't know how the hell I'm going to do physical therapy in the ammount of pain that I'm in.

[GoingToMakeIt]

I take payments in dark chocolate. LOL
I know someone who has long term pain that switched to methadone. It is a similar story as your wifes. At least they can function a somewhat normal life.

[discretekarma]

Or a pie if you prefer pie.

[discretekarma]

I posted something similar to this on Spine-Health forums and all I've received is criticism.  They have all told me that I'm a drug addict and don't need pain medicine to begin with as if they know how much pain I've been in.  

I really have to thank everyone on here for being so supportive without judging me.  The last thing I need at a time like this is to be judged.  

Thanks to you all for being so great to me without even knowing me.  If I could buy a cake for each one of you I would.  

[discretekarma]

I've been up for about 48 hours now. I made appointments for a doctor that can prescribe Subaxon but my wife insisted.  Part of her wants me to suffer fot what I did and the other part of her doesn't want to waste the money since she knows that I'll have to continue using pain meds since I have 2 ruptured discs, 3 bulging discs, and will need surgery soon as well.  She called the PMD and told him what is going on and that I was taking one extra pill a day and he told her to make an appointment for Monday.  I think he''s going to work with me since she'll be the one giving me the pills from now on.  I still don't think he'll write the script before 3 weeks.  All I can do is cross my fingers because I'm in so much pain (not only withdrawal pain). We'll see.

[traveladdict]

The Sub has helped others.  If you are suffering allot it would not hurt to take your wife with you and visit with the Dr. I have never used the Sub but I do know the w/d hell you are going through. You will need to make your own decision. I do know it will get better with time.  If you don't want to go the Sub route he can at least prescribe some xanax or valium to ease the pain you are in. I used xanax for the first 3-4 days during the day and valium at night with ambien for seeping.

[discretekarma]

I finally found and made an appt for two doctors that said they'd prescribe Seboxone today but my wife is saying I can't go. I can't do this any more.  I really need to go. HELP!!!!!!!!!!

[discretekarma]

Thanks so much for the support.  It really makes me see the light when such great people are on here.  Thanks so much.

[traveladdict]

Great job on hanging tough!  I really think by the end of Friday you will fill like you are turning a corner.  Keep up the good fight.

[allaboutmary]

YAAAAAAAAAAA !   You can do this !  Another couple days !  If you lost your mind, it will find you again about day 4 or 5.lol   You should be so proud .  Stay strong and keep going.  I am so glad your wife is so supportive.  Give her a big hug from us.   Mary

[discretekarma]

I'm about 6 hours from the end of day 2. I feel like I have lost my mind and all that's left is this shaking body. I'm miserable but I'm still hanging in there. I really owe my sucess so far to my wife for giving me the mental strength and telling me that I can make it. I've been in either the bath or the hot tub at least once an hour for the past 30 hours.I think that I'm going to make it through. At least at this point it's a possibility. When I was 6 hours away from ending day one, I thought there was no way that I was going to make it. I'm doing it.  1 minute at a time.

[GoingToMakeIt]

One way to look at withdrawals. they are a great reminder when you are sober and thinking about using again.

[traveladdict]

I have to agree with you detox is hell but so is worrying about refills and all of the other stuff that goes with using. You are on day two it is still going to be a couple of rough days but remember we all know how bad w/d and c/t are.  It is worse than a train wreck. When I c/t off morphine and vic it was over the xmas holiday.  Xmas was the worst day of my life with the family and all the kids screaming I wished I had received a bullet for xmas. Ambien will help but not for a couple of days I was taking two and still did not receive much sleep for the first 5 days.  I put music on at night and tried to think of something else.  Of course easer said than done. Just hang tough it will be over soon. Keep on fighting.

[discretekarma]

I read about someone who took Ambien and slept through most of this. I'm thinking about trying this.

Scott

[discretekarma]

I have a few questions about what will help with all this.  I have Ambien and Seroquel and wanted to know if either will help the way I feel.  Will Ambien knock me out, will seroquel help at all?

Thanks

[discretekarma]

I've never been so miserable in my life.  My wife has been my saving grace by keeping me strong but it is so hard.  It's one thing to read about the help or even to see someone in the hell but I feel like it's a whole nother story to live through.  You have to be so mentally strong ever second that passes just to keep your sanity.

[CGR76]

Sorry to here u are going through this, but hang in there. Keep reading and writing, do whatever it takes to take your mind off of this hell you are going through. If you must lay in your wifes arms and cry, and scream. I think you feel better. Good luck today and hang in there. One day down, 3 or 4 to go.

cgr