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[Blacky00]

I had something so bad happen to me that lately thats all I been thinking about n I never did I managed to forget...but ok so I went n got drunk with a so called friend she left me there with this guy so then all I remember is I blacked out waking up walking down the street I think he did rape me I know that but not having communication with youre mom I didnt say nothing the years have passed n I have anxiety for acouple months know but this has never bugged me until like a month ago..no one knows n my anxiety is making it worse!!!! wat should I do I have kids little ones too n it breaks my heart cuz I would never let any of this happen to them!!! I will be there for anything anywhere anytime!!!!wat do I do???? it also makes me mad cuz the person that did it to me is out there like nothing happened!!!sad thing is I dnt knw wat his name is or anything but I remember his car n its a diff car cuz it was all fixed n actually I seen it ar0und!!jst dont know how tell my mom!!! helpme??oh n my so called friend knows this but dnt knw if shell help me with finding this guy cuz I know she at least remembers his car or something more then me cuz it was her guy friend that knew this guy..its not fair I have to go thru this!!

[specialmom]

Well welcome and we ARE here to support you.  It is freeing to express our inner thoughts and secrets.  A therapist can really help you through it.  Make sure you talk to them about crying so much and the anxiety it is causing you.  

Peace and healing to you,

[Blacky00]

tanx alot for youre support!!!n yes I have so much regret but theres nothing I can do just to move on!!i know I wish people would realize how dangerous it is I mean people who say are youre friends arent!!!!n I mean im only in my twentys for this to be traumatizing me I have two beautiful children to raise n keep looking forward!!hopefully therapy will work I already had an appoinment but I didnt tell thrm next appoinment ill make sure I do!!!!not telling anyone is maling me feel worse!!!luckly I found this website to let it out!!

[specialmom]

Ya know, for now, you don't need to tell him.  You can say that you are having anxiety issues and feel talking to a professional would help you.  Sadly, you really don't know what happened as you were blacked out.  Maybe you'll have more clarity about it or maybe not.  But dealing with the anxiety is key to moving on.  

Down the road, you may know how to talk to your husband about it.  Hopefully you have married a loving man that would support you about something that happened years ago and causes you emotional pain.

But I would say that you also sound like you are suffering depression along with your anxiety that could be related to this as well as other things/chemical imbalance in the brain.  Seeking treatment will help you deal with emotions resulting from this 'event'.  good luck

[specialmom]

If it has been years since it happened, the best course of action is to see a therapist for yourself,  Go and discuss what may have happened and more importantly your anxiety.  

I wish young girls everywhere would read your story to understand how dangerous partying can be and that we need to take care of ourselves better than that.  We need to be aware of where we are and what is happening to us.  

So, see a therapist for your anxiety and to sort through what you do remember and all of your emotions.  good luck and peace to you

[Blacky00]

im married n im scared to tell him idk just the tought that he will leave me or idk I mean my kids are his??dnt knw its really bugging me tho I sit here n cry all the time..