I Have Never Told Anyone

[Maxpixie]

A long time ago i used to work late, there was a taxi that i took almost every night, he wasn't a stranger i used to take his taxi to and from school so i've known him for a while as much as one could given the situation. it was one of those nights when left my keys so i offered him a charter to take me back to work for my keys then home, he took me on a back road and pulled a knife on me and forced me to blow him because i told him that if he raped me he'd have to kill me at the time i was thinking blowing him would be easier right? when he was done he took me home all the while talking like nothing happened. he used to call to me on the street like we were friends and i put it out of my mind but now i realized that it's been affecting me in ways i never thought of and i need to deal with it, i can't confront him i have no idea where he disappered to so what should i do to try and get past this?

[jo929]

First let me say how sorry i am that this happened to you, and the best way to get over it is to talk to someone as you have here, talk about it and then put it behind you and get on with your life, and remember it could have been a lot worse. the main thing is to take control over your life, and do not let this take over your life, it happened,you are alive thank God and it was not your fault sometimes we do what we have to to survive, please post anytime you feel like it someone will listen. just remember he was the abuser dont let him have the satisfaction of dragging you down you are a better person  luck  jo

[AnxiousGurl]

You are so courageous for telling this, please find another taxi, and tell someone, like margypops said, it will help you to overcome this, it wont be easy but, you will feel better for being able to get your feelings out...

[margypops]

Find someone to talk to like you have come here that is a first step, realise it wasnt your fault he was the abuser, it will take time, accept what happened to you but say to yourself you will not let it affect your life, is there a school counselor where you live , your Mom, anyone else to talk it over with? It could still be that you could report this to the Authorities especially if you are under age . I am sorry you feel bad , give yourself time..