Update on Progress

[kathrynheath0707]

It seems like I will look to anything for a cure to my addiction problems. I started out on methadone. Then I quit and went through withdrawals for 8 weeks. Then I went to Kratom to help me through the pain with what I was dealing with in my life and then I quit that after 10 months of abuse. Now I drink a lot and do pills on occasion (like once every 3 months) the drinking is my big problem. I do pills then I w/d for a week and while I w/d I drink or find other substances (like alcohol) to abuse, I am trying to take adipex to lose weight and I keep getting fake drugs offline. I am w/d from pills this week and next week I am not sure what I'll do. I don't want to be dependent on any kind of substance anymore. I turn to anything to make me feel better and I am not sure what to do. How do I become completely sober? I took 5HTP for months after I quit Kratom and I loved it, but now it does nothing. I want to be free of my addictive personality. NA is not possible due to my hours and I stay of pills unless they are around. ---Which they just were for 3 weeks.- And I am w/d now. How have others come off of everything? I know others write to this forum and make friends that help. Can someone please help me? At least be a friend?

[jo929]

have you tried rehab  luck  jo

[Shanna707]

First thing you cannot have any of those things around you or anyone who will offer those things to you just for starts.  It sounds like your trying to fill an empty space with the wrong stuff.  I really would suggest some counseling if you've never tried to get help.  If you are able to get clean, but then go back to these harmful things for you, it sounds like there is a much deeper rooted problem than the drugs for you.  The drugs and alcohol are just a symptom of something else.  It may take a while to find a good fit, but try to find a psychiatrist who matches your personality and you can be comfortable enough to be totally honest with.  

[margypops]

Hi guys must have missed your post, this is a great forum... the Substance abuse forum is also pretty good you may want to try there aswell as they may have more input on that kind of addiction, and members ther will know how to help you more . Good Luck you will make a ton of friends here ....

[kathrynheath0707]

Oh, you highlight the person's name and then it will give you a few options, click add as friend.

[kathrynheath0707]

Thanks. I would like a way out of always "needing" something. I always feel like something is missing in my life if there are no drugs or alcohol. I never used to be like this before I did pills. I could go without anything and be fine and then I got addicted to pills, then got off. Then got addicted to something similar, then got off. Now I use occasionally but can't seem to be able to say no to them.
Maybe someday I will be able to say no to everything.
As for adding friends, I think you click the person's name and on their profile you can add them, not sure.

[Openhearted]

Hi - I am happy to talk with you and offer my assistance.  I am new to the site and don't know how to add friends at this stage - perhaps you could help me there?

I have some different ideas and ways of looking at things  but I'm not about forcing them onto anybody.  You sound like you're in pain and would like a way out?

best wishes for now.