MY LITTLE GIRL

[narla]

I had my counselling session on Thursday  using relaxation meditation and light hypnosis,I was able to remember feelings and emotions, I was able to connect with the 7 yr old,some people on this forum have had such good advice through my journey I thought I would share my experience with you,don't feel sorry or pity for me this is the best thing I've ever done it has answered many things I'd blocked out.


It's not easy to get in the relaxed meditative state,and you really need to have trust in the person that's helping you,For me It's working really well It's hard because it brings everything out in the open again things I've tried not to think about but all that meant was I hadn't dealt with them,I'll be honest with you today I saw and felt what the 7yr old was enduring,I had always blamed her and I actually thought she must of enjoyed it because she never said anything.I've always remembered what he did to me but I had blocked out my emotions and feeling,As of today I know exactly what I was feeling,It hurts to write this but I know eventually it will help me,Through the tears she was in pain it hurt, a 7yr olds vagina and mouth are not meant for penises,I'm sorry this is blunt and to the point,but I learnt a lot today about how strong I must have been.Believe or not it has actually helped me,It's like a weights been lifted.And I'm going to be Okay.Thanks for listening,Every telling makes it that little bit easier.
I can now say honestly I don't blame the little girl anymore and for the first time I love her with all my heart.
  I have no regrets in living through what was hard to get my feelings and emotions back in balance.  Denise

[kittie335]

Yes you certainly did the right thing, it gives others hope and even though I dont know you I feel like if you can do it after being through so much then so can I. It is very inspiring and I plan on going through with it myself very soon. Thank you for the post!

[jo929]

Do not let negative responses bother you, just sift through the ans and forget negative and think positive.i never let some answers bother me, and i have had my share, but i figure what the heck let them have their say i do not mind, i speak my peice and that is what counts. in other words what i am trying to say is that you have had your day in court, and you have won, nothing else matters  luck  jo

[narla]

You have made my day,I now feel I have done the right thing in sharing this if it helps 1 person feel a little bit more comfortable going through the same thing then it was worth whatever negative responses I may get,none so far.  Thank You  Denise

[kittie335]

So glad to hear your happy news. This is exactly what my counselor has been working me up to and its nice to hear that it has helped you in some ways. Im still scared to do it but hearing your story makes it seem a little easier. Good luck with your continuing success ! All the best wishes for you!!!

[margypops]

It is upbeat and positive and thats what struggling folks need it is stories like yours that give hope to others with pain struggling through, it took a lot of guts to come out and tell your story ..

[narla]

I agonized over whether I should put this on the forum or not It's very personal but I thought the more people that can see counselling and reliving what happened at the time can help in your healing the better, my emotions and feelings are now balanced and I understand so much more than I ever did before.I still have more work to do on other things that happened in my life.Anyone who has read my original posts knows a lot more happened in my life but this is my new phase in healing everything about me. Denise

[margypops]

Joi says it, a very touching story , and a success,it make severyone feel good that sometimes for some , there is a light at the end of the tunnel,you walked in her shoes, it is a good thing.... I say this to Moms who come for help with child behavior ...walk in their shoes ....thats a great story narla has helped us all.,thank you    

[jo929]

I am so glad that you are getting things together, this is a very touching story, and i think that you are doing just fine keep up the good work  luck  jo