Hello, the fact that you even worried about it shows you are not like that. As children we are curious and do silly things!
If u had forced him to do something inappropriate (like masturbate you as u mentioned) then there would be an issue.
As 1 of 3 girls we did silly things like play doctors and look at what each other looked like down there but there was never a bad intention and its not something we did except for probably once. I feel silly about it now but i know i dont have weird/inappropriate feelings towards children ect.
Im a normal happily married person with children.
I really dont think u need to worry about it and if u have a normal relationship with your brother now...im sure hes fine too.
I hope your doing something about your depression though?
-jess
What you've described happens frequently in families, so yes, in a sense it is 'normal" and often it is as a result of problems in the home. What you've described would not be considered child abuse, however, it might help, indeed be a requirement that you talk to a therapist to fully recover from your feelings (depression). I hope that you have the option of talking to one and moving on with your life with closure from this incident.
God bless you for posting. It shows what a good heart you have. Please, feel better. You can write to me via private message if you wish. I have experience with the same sort of thing in my life. Liz
All children are curious and that does not sound like you exploited or abused him. Forgive yourself - you were just a kid yourself.