Raped and Pregnant with Twins

[bellasmom2011]

I was raped a few months back and went straight to the police because he also beat me. After he raped me i missed my period and i took a home pregnancy test and it come back positive and i went to the dr and they confirmed that i was pregnant. Last monday at my drs app they told me i was going to have twins i am really scared and i just want the hurt and pain to stop everytime i think about the babies all i think about is him beating me and raping me can anybody give me any suggestions on how to cope with the rape and pregnancy. I mean i would never have an abortion, i have thought about adoption but after my first pregnancy and my daughter dying right after birth i dont know if i could put them up for adoption. I just dont know what to do. I just want everything to go away and I wish it wold have never happened. Someone please help i dont know what to do........

[kaz463]

I was date raped two months ago but i had my period for both month but it was really weird,i took many pregnancy test but all say negative but I feel pain everyday in my abdomen,my breast is super huge and blue and leaking a bit of clear stuff,my navel is dark and pains like its being tugged inside with a light dark line down my abdomen and today which is exactly eight weeks now I feel extremely huge,I barely eat but gained four pounds but the other pain im also experiencing is too much to explain here but its unbearable and brings back memories of how it got there,my mom is the only one who knows what happened but doesn't believe im not pregnant like the other doctors but I know my own body and even if I do get someone to check me and verify that I really am idk  how to tell the rest of my family why im pregnant,this is my first pregnancy and im scared as well.I cant stop cry everyday,I dont want to make myself sick again but I have been having thoughts as if to have them or not because of my career,yesterday I got a serious blow to my abdomen accidently while cleaning and im in constant pain right now but no bleeding so far.

[melipops]

Hi, I hope these babies will come through. When they are born i am sure you will see the goodness in  these little beings. I am sure in time you will see that although they resulted from something bad happening they are wonderful. I am sorry for what happened to you. Just keep your head high and enjoy those little ones when they are born. Good luck I hope things get better for you. Unfortunately no-one can take away the pain although i believe everyone who has read this would love too. Take care this is a time you need to rally everyone you can around you. Take heart in the fact that everyone who has read this will be praying for you and these little bubs. If you want to feel free to post. Keep being  strong.

[Arowe]

I am so sorry that happened to you I didnt even  read past the title without tearing up. Be strong!

[margypops]

Thank you for your caring touching post... I am sure it will help bellasmom and the others suffering ..I hope you can find acceptance and peace of mind sometimes it takes a long  while.Your words were exactly as I have always thought about birth, children and what a miracle it all is .thank you so much .

[Brownstar07]

Man, I don't know exactly what to say to all of this....i can honestly say that I understand the part about losing your daughter. My son was stillborn when I was 8.5 months & in the hospital for 9 days with preeclampsia & dangerously high bp. I think I shouldve died to. I'm surprised I don't have any organ damage although I have other serious health problems. My baby would be 4 now& nothing ever fills that hole in my heart. When I see a story like this it really grabs my heart because i feel like mothers of lost angel babies have some kindof invisible unspoken bonds between hearts. I know everything you felt from it because I felt the same things. I dnt know about the rape part. I hope your able to defeat that whole trauma from that & I do believe that god took a tragedy from a stupid man using his free will & selfishness to hurt someone else & he turned it around and now gave you 2 miracle babies. That's exactly what the are. Because inception, pregnancy & birth are literally a miracle. That our bodies receive this foreign object that our immune system is designed to kill off but yet they grow & develop & are born anyways is the first miracle. The miracle of life. This miracles can shine light in the darkest corners of our lives& they will help bring healing to your heart for everything uve been through. They are your angels& have come into your life to teach you things. No matter what happens just know that& I will light a candle & pray for you& the babies. I really hope things start to get better for you& please keep us updated no matter what happens.

[neufeldt]

Hi when  I was 18 I was rap I have I had a gril do not get to see her but I know she ok my parents  took from I sign paper I do not remember  what ever you do make show  you have somebody you can t

[babylove0]

Just wndring how your babied are?

[bellasmom2011]

I hope the babies will be ok also. I will be in the hospital at leat until i reach 16 weeks so they can make sure the babies are ok after the procedure and that the procedure worked. If not i will be put on complete bedrest until they are born. They also started me on steroid injections every 2 hrs to help the babies.

[margypops]

I hope it works and that the babies are okay ..let us know how it goes .I think that getting as much therapy as you need is good and will do nothing but help you get over the trauma or at least come to terms with what happened .I hope the perpetrator is in the hands of the authorities..

[bellasmom2011]

I am talking to a rape and pregnancy counselor it is hard but i am doing it for mine and my husbands relationship. I want kids and i love these babies and now that i am in the hospital due to an incompetent cervix i am scared to death i am going to loose them. The dr said when i reach 14 weeks they will do a procedure called a cervical cerclage to stitch my cervix so maybe it wont open prematurely i had this with my daughter but not this early.

[margypops]

Sorry I see you were thinking about adoption you say in your post,it is still worth the consideration.Possibly you need to have further counseling to help you make decisions .

[margypops]

Certainly in my opinion adoption is better than abortion many great people are looking to adopt children are you thinking of going that way ?

[bellasmom2011]

yes it all about the babies nowand yes i have found the group for multiple birth and i wouldnt have it any other way than to have them i would never think about having an abortion and it is hard for me to think about adoption because i was adopted when i was lil and i didnt meet my parents till i was 16 and i dont want my babies growing not knowing their mom or dad. And it is also hard to think about adoption after my last pregnancy and having to bury my daughter.

[margypops]

You have a good strong attitude its all about those babies now , they will get you through this dreadful trauma and maker you a stronger person, I am so glad you are having them, its life and that's important and hey America needs babies ..they are a good thing.Hope you can get to where you accept that this happened but it in no way retracts from their lives .you are and will be a winner . Have you found some of the pregnancy groups here, I believe theres one for multiple births ....Good Luck

[Tinabudde]

Hi Bellasmom, I think you should make an appt with a rape counselor.  They can help you deal with all the emotional trauma you are dealing with.  It's hard I know.  One of my friends was raped and wound up pregnant but lost the baby, miscarriage.  She went through so much, we would stay up late at night talking.  She had guilt about not wanting the baby, but at the same time losing it really crushed her.  I don't know if you have a church you go to, sometimes ministers can help counsel too.  

[bellasmom2011]

I just hope they are going to be ok and i do feel very alone right now even though my husband is trying to do everything he can for me it is just at times that i dont want to be touched or held or anything since i was raped and he really doesnt understand why. I have tried to explain it to him but he still doesnt understand, Even though these babies are from being raped they are my babies and will always be and nothing can change that. The bible says God never puts more on you than you can handle so obviously he though i could handle loosing my lil girl and then being raped and now pregnant with twins. It has been hard but i am trying to stay strong.

[grannienannie]

I am so so sorry what your going through I know how you feel... You are one strong woman....I am glad you decided to have them and your not running to the abortion clinic...that tells me your so so much stronger than him...thosee babies are still a part of you...and I pray when you have them born you see the joy, bueaty and strength that shines from them through you...Althought God see things happen he do make things better..eventually...look he gave you a sign twice and your pregnant with two so they will always have each other...even if ever they feel aloone like yourself....I hope you get better...and I hope they look like you...keep staying strong...