Im all the time being abused by somebody

[lalila]

Story is way too long, parents were emotionally abusive,
then bfs were abusive,
then even my friends starting seeing me like some sex toy. Just stringing me along and dating me but not wanting a relationship with me.

I start breaking down when I think about it, cant hink, too traumatic. I forget stuff, i leave stuff in places. My house is a mess.
I dont realy know how to heal this.  Its almost 17 years of abuse.

[margypops]

That good I suspect you are seeing the truth now , well done its falling into place, they are not worthy of you, did you clean the house yet ..thats good therapy...

[lalila]

I guess I should stop talking to my exes, even when I did it didn't make it any better but I'm in a in between state of talking and not talking to them it doesn't seem to matter I'll try to get things in order

[Messmess66]

Get ure parents arrested and talk to a counselor

[margypops]

Possibly making some new friends is the answer here,genuine ones with no ulterior motive, and that's up to you , what kind of relationship you have . Keep busy, work hard and join some clubs, a Gym maybe a sport.you''ll meet people that way.Leave the exes alone doesnt sound as if they are helpful anyway time to move on ,if you cant some therapy would be the answer.good luck  

[lalila]

I moved to another country cos of my ex, and had to make a lot of new friends. I try not to contact them but I end up chatting to my exes when I'm lonely. I told then they hurt me and they were sorry, but it's more like I'm lonely and stuff just comes back. If someone else rejects me it comes back. When someone's nice to me I feel really happy. But then it ends up like they r just trying to get me in bed, or it was part of it. My male friends

[margypops]

Sounds like some therapy may help you, be able to talk it through, coming here is a first step.Take control do not let others mistreat you, have nothing to do with people who would do that.Plenty of good folks out there, mix with them , they can only abuse you if you are around them remove them from your life .Have nothing to do with abusive bf's.Dont think too much that will make you feel bad ,keep busy ,get the house in order...good luck

[specialmom]

Hi there.  Years of abuse by parents and then those we sought love from (often trying by being sexual with them) will take its toll.  I answered you in the other forum.  I so think that you should seek help for depression as well as some therapy to help you get to a stronger place emotionally.  A psychologist can work on this with you to help you understand your value and to help you stand up for yourself.  good luck and peace dear