How do I get through this?? I'm so hurt

[Sad_Woman]

I've had a beautiful dog named Cyrus for 12 years. Tonight we went out and he was outside and for whatever reason jumped the fence with his lead on. He hung himself. We came home to a nightmare come true. My dearest buddy is dead. I'm destroyed inside, I love that dog with all my heart and he's gone.

Every part of me wants to numb myself. I know I can't but God this pain is torture. 12 years together to end like this?? Life is cruel.

[gnarly_1]

I have lost 2 dogs over the last `13 yrs both killed by cars to me it like loosing a child it so so hard I really feel for you its ok to cry and grive let it out it when we bottle it up it gets to you im sorry for your lose hang inther it like loosingg you best friend God bless......Gnarly

[Sad_Woman]

I can't stop crying. I still can't understand how it happened. This is a very high fence but somehow it did and I feel awful. It feels unreal like a bad dream. I know it's real though and this will haunt me forever. Im praying he didn't suffer. This hurts worst of all wondering but not knowing.

Your right Sara, he wouldn't want me to mess this up. I'm not going to but this pain is intense. I'm so sorry about your girl, losing a close companion in this way is so hard to deal with. It doesn't feel real- yet it does. God please help me through this.

[satiniair206]

So sorry for your loss. My family was a big pet family so I know how you feel.
I had a couple of similar stories and it is hard as hell right now, but time will lesson the pain I promise.
Just try to think of all the good times you had with him.
God bless!

[ang_811]

so sorry this happened to ya. I just had to say goodbye to my lab who i had for 17 years last month, along with 3 friends also last month. Grieving is the hardest thing i think ive been thru. But im getting thru it one day at a time. Reaching out and talking as much as i can. Bn around support and friends who hold me up when i feel like im gonna fall. Keep busy, busy, and more busy. No matter how much u want to dig a hole and crawl in it DONT. U will get thru this clean n sober. Like sara said cry...Hugs to ya and keep ur head up...ang

[10356]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your Dear Cyrus. I too lost my lil ole lady this year it is very difficult but as Sara said honor Cyrus by grieving clean for these are your true emotions. warm hugs. lesa

[dominosarah]

I am so very sorry for your loss.  Losing a pet is very hard as they are family.  We honor them and ourselves by staying clean and feeling our emotions.  I know this hurts as i lost my girl in January and i too was devastated.  Letting myself grieve was the best thing for me as today i can remember her and smile now.  Let yourself cry, it's okay.  Hugs to you~~sara