I found a pill

[Defco]

I knew this would eventually happen. Ive been clean for 56 days and I found a pill in a jacket I wore when I was using.

Obviously my first thought was throw it away. But I didn't.
Ill throw it away later. But I didn't
Maybe I'll save it for when I need it. which should be never.

Why do I have this conversation in my head!!! I know 1 wont do anything and I still know how hard I've worked to stay clean. Why do I even hesitate

Not sure why im posting this but I just need to write this out and log it.

[dominosarah]

I agree with the live sponsor really helping.  Online is great but you need the in person part of it.  You also find alot of people who share the same goal as you and that is to stay clean.

[jifmoc]

Also, a "live" sponsor would really really (REALLY) help. Trust me, I didn't want to go to meetings...at all. But they are the only thing keeping me from going nuts w/ cravings. Hey, what would it hurt to walk in to one?

[jifmoc]

Ah ha, Domino!!!

Great job, Defco!!!!

[dominosarah]

And the gallery goes wild at the sound of flushing!!!!!!!!!!  Way to go!!!

[EG70]

*applauding*

[Sonrissa]

I'm so glad you flushed it.  Ya know, I read these stories all the time about people finding pills. It's funny, I never believed it. I used to think, oh sure.... Until it happened to me. I had been clean for a while, I don't remember exactly.  I had been cleaning out an old purse. I found a folded up Kleenex with 3 pills inside. I couldn't believe it. I stared at them for a minute or 2 and then I started laughing.  I put them in the trash and dumped a bag of dirty cat litter on top.   I never doubt those stories anymore.

Great job. I wish you all the best.