I found a pill

[Defco]

I knew this would eventually happen. Ive been clean for 56 days and I found a pill in a jacket I wore when I was using.

Obviously my first thought was throw it away. But I didn't.
Ill throw it away later. But I didn't
Maybe I'll save it for when I need it. which should be never.

Why do I have this conversation in my head!!! I know 1 wont do anything and I still know how hard I've worked to stay clean. Why do I even hesitate

Not sure why im posting this but I just need to write this out and log it.

[gnarly_1]

H i  well im with sara FLUSH IT!!!!! it will keep calling your name if you dont... it is not worth the '' mind screw'' you will go thew a relapse  if your looking for why this is so hard it is because your a addict...there is no cure but you can live in recovery if you work at it  I often say that if you put the same effort in your recovery as you did wile using you will recover for me N/A has changed my life and the lives of millions of people around the world it is a simple progam that if applied will change the very way you think without this you will continue to think like a addict and this disease will bring you down it has me and many others as soon as my disease tells me ''your cured'' you dont need meetings and I stop going to meetings my track record tells me im going down within 90 days hence why I go to 4 meetings a week it is a cheep price to pay for recovery give it a shot google N/a meetings in your area  the sooner the better there is a exciting and amazing life a head for you isint worth a few hours a week....please try it................Gnarly..............

[jifmoc]

Defco, don't you dare call yourself a loser!!! If the answer were that obvious to us in times of "crisis", there would never be any relapses. I think it's amazing of you to post that. Good job! That's exactly what we are supposed to do. Do you have a sponsor? Other peeps in program to call? A human voice can calm us down.

If I had any in front of me I would be effed, I would totally agonize about it, too. What helps is that I can't just go to the store and buy Norco. Since it's not around, that helps w/ safety. So, flushing will help w/ the spinning in your head.

[Defco]

its at home, im at work. thank you for your post. I told myself I would come here whenever I feel weak.

I've just read a bunch of post and your comments. thank you. Im reminded of how much of a loser I can be. the answer is so obvious. Crush that POS up and flush it.

I guess I needed to post this to have some kind of accountability.

I will flush it tonight and post.

[bama88]

Flush it....don't even take time to think..  If you are on this board talking about this topic than you are playing with something that's wrong.....take this advice from me.  The longer that stays in your possession the more it will talk to you.  If your even thinking about this topic....it's a very DAMGEROUS PLACE TO BE.  You now longer have the luxury of playing what ifs.... Do you play Russian roulette?  No.  You don't.  Why are you even posting this?....  This is not up for debate. You can not pass go.

[dominosarah]

You need to get rid of that pill ASAP.  Please flush it NOW

[kellygirll]

throw it away you don't want to go back take it from a chronic relapser THROW.........IT...........AWAY!!!!! PLEASE  DO IT NOW