24 hrs in, @ work, miserable

[NorcBgone]

I'm officially at 24 hrs since my last dose and trying to pump myself up for the work day. Its time to suck up the pain and spit out the demon in my body. Its funny how a little yellow pill can seem so important at the time. Well, it's time to say goodbye forever, and get rid of this drug hazed lifestyle I've created.  Guess I'm just looking for a little humor to keep up my spirits. Hope everyone has a good day.

[NorcBgone]

Hey Matt - I was feeling horrible this morning so I took a day off work. I fell asleep this afternoon for 5 hours and feel fantastic! Sleep is great. I understand about stress, but keep pushing forward. Hope all is well with you too.

Jimi - Dogs are very intuitive. They understand from your behavior and voice if you are feeling bad, angry, or happy. I just feel guilty that mine are having to stay locked up. However, If I feel this good tomorrow we'll get back to normal (whatever that is)

[MattTheAttorney]

Being proud of yourself is absolutely allowed...In fact I insist you be proud.  How are you feeling today?  Today is Day 7 for me, one week, but the stress of work is getting to me.  I will be okay though.  Nothing I can't handle.

Hope you are well.  Let me know.

Matt

[jimimiddlefinger]

Hey NBG 5 days that's fantastic! Funny I was reading about your dogs "getting lazy w/ you"...I got a miniature Australian Shepherd and he's gotta know something is wrong with me. He has been layin by the kitchen door ever since I went into wd's. Oh he eats and barks at the neighbor kids but he just lays there watching me like he knows I feel crappy. Well keep on truckin you're about thru it!

Peace

[NorcBgone]

i'm working hard, you know how that is. This forum has been a life saver. For instance, i'm having a pretty rough evening so far, but I come on here and read how great everyone is doing. You keep up the good work, i've been following you too!

[cpdave]

U r doin great u r an insperation to me.Stay strong and god bless

[NorcBgone]

i'm pretty proud of myself right now. As that allowed? LOL The pacing is getting old, yet necessary to stay sane. I bet your pup was thrilled to go out and socialize. I can't wait to be part of the land of the living again, with feelings and everything, AGAIN! I am looking forward to tomorrow.

[MattTheAttorney]

so glad to hear from you.  I took the dog to the park today to let her run like crazy.  I know she needed it because she is already asleep.  I am so proud of how you are doing.  keep up the good work.

Matt

[NorcBgone]

Matt - My dogs are getting lazy w/ me. When I take them outside they just lay in the sun, so I try to hang as long as I can. The sun really does make me feel better. I'm just extremely lethargic today. The only thing that hurts is my ankles and feet, so uncomfortable. BUT, I'm thinking how strong I am, and I WILL make it thru this.

Quit - I am sleeping a few hours which is better than nothing. Just thankful I'm on day 5. Thanks for the thoughts and prayers. All I've been doing lately is praying!

[quitinoxys]

Norc---How ya doin this morn? I hope you are feeling better and got some sleep last night. I know when I went through w/d sleep was hard to come by for me until about day 6, so it's right around the corner. Keep hanging in there you will make it to the other side. I will pray that God gives you the strength to make it through----quitin

[MattTheAttorney]

Hope you're having a good day today.  Hope you got some sleep and got the dog walked.  I know my dog is dying for a walk, so we decided we are going to take her to the park and let her run the last six days out of her.  I finally brushed her today and I think she senses we are doing better.  

I am so proud of how you are doing right now.  Keep posting and keep moving forward.  We are all here for you

Matt

[NorcBgone]

thanks girl! I'm hanging in there as much as i can. trying not to think about it, but the creepy crawlies are giving me trouble. I know about shame. I feel the same about docs getting us into this, but hey they certainly didn't get me THIS far into my problem. I think everytime I started to wd I got scared, but I'm finally done with this stuff. Trying to find those good 5 minutes that are intermittant to keep me going forward.

[HippyGirl100]

Gosh I know how you feel right now.. It's the pits!  The first time I went cold turkey i freaked out. The burning chest, the getting in and out of bed a thousand times a night..
The worst was, my pupils dialed and I was seeing trails in the early morning driving my kid to school.  SCARRRRY!  So I went to see my Doctor. He got me in this mess I figured he darn well better get me out. All he could do was give me encouragement, some valium, which i don't think helped at all.
Thank God this time my kid is out of school. Talk about feeling shame. I think  it was the third day I had to go work in his class. Because if i didn't, the guilt would have been far worse. I told her I could only stay half day, and the work she gave me to correct was so very difficult.  That concentration problem. (Should have stayed home!)
But I lost a LOT of business. And that is NOT cool.
Good luck NBG, and HANG IN THERE!!  Doing it again makes you feel worse.
Try and eat some chicken soup, it cures everything..

[NorcBgone]

Thanks Gnarly - Thankfully I'm home the next 2 days so I hope that gets me thru the worst of the physical. I know sleep won't happen, but hey, pick your battles right? Thanks for the good thoughts.

Hey Jimi - Glad to see you're still chugging along. Energy is lost, but I had a wave of good this afternoon from about 4:05 - 4:15. VERY PROMISING! LOL

[jimimiddlefinger]

I can relate to your day NBG! I had about the same sleep schedule. Woke up feeling full of myself and decided to wash my firebird. That's my girl and she was getting alittle dirty. Wow that sucked all of the energy I had right out of me. Now I'm just sitting here, I don't have enough in my tank to even get up and get some water. And I'm REALLY thirst! Hang in there..

[gnarly_1]

Hey dude....try not to get to discouraged this comes and goes in waves right now your just getting steam rolled....it will get better...try and use your symptoms to strengthen your resolve to quit you can do this its just going to take a bit of perseverance...I cant imagine having to work thew it your strong to be able to do that...try and relax the best you can in your down time...liquid B- complex helps the energy crash thing a bit but the best cure is time...just know this is all temporary and in a few days you will start to see some light..keep on hanging in there and keep posting with your progress where all out here to help....good luck and God bless......Gnarly    

[NorcBgone]

UGH! All the positive has left the building. I went to sleep at about 5 and slept till 10 so I guess that's good. I got the bright idea to walk my dog, but bless her heart, I made it 5 minutes. I'll try again later. How are you holding up?

[MattTheAttorney]

Good morning from the pacific ocean...How are you doing today?  

Matt

[NorcBgone]

Thanks Quit - I just don't want to cause more misery.

Matt- Glad to know your fiance is feeling better.

Jimi - Paying is all I'm doing now, so getting better has to be around the corner.

This is the first time I've tried to get off this horrible med too, and I'm determined. I can't do this twice. I'm a strong person, but WOW! My dogs are pacing with me, and I'm curious to see if they'll learn how to jump n jack before the night is over.

[jimimiddlefinger]

"I have to pay to get out"
Ain't that the truth. What if WD/s were easy? Where would we all be? I know where I'd be and it ain't a good place. I'll gladly suffer and hope I learn my lesson this time. I may not get another chance. As for why we don't stop? I think we all know the answer to that. Thanks an take it 1 @ a time! You'll be fine....

Oh and OJ is the best lb for lb value on potassium, that doesn't taste like crap!

[MattTheAttorney]

Was thinking about you and glad the spirits are still high.  The fiance is doing much better, day 3 for her.  She has an appetite back and is looking so much better.  

Unfortunately the diet of what we have been eating has been horrible.  For some reason all I have wanted to eat was Mc Donalds and Taco Bell.  My last four meals have been fast food...I know I know I should be eating better but just glad I am. I never eat fast food I promise but am making an exception until Monday.  

I am so proud of you right now.  I KNOW you are gonna make it through these rough days.  Try to get Monday off, even if you feel a little better.  I could have worked today, but called in anyhow.  Mentally it REALLY helped to have that extra day.  Today is day four, tomorrow is day five.  It is all one day at a time.

As for aftercare, I was so against it, but this is my first time trying to kick anything and I am never going back.  Gonna go see an addiction specialist, I have great insurance so I should be able to find someone.  Plus I live in a very big city so should be okay.  Glad youre thinking about the aftercare.  It can only help right?

Keep your head up and I will check in on you in a little bit.  Gonna watch a movie.  Havent wanted to do that for days.

[quitinoxys]

I would wait till tomorrow morn to take the B vitamins but the C and potassium would be ok hey might even help you sleep. Yeah if your feeling anxious right now I would stay away of the L-Tyrosine for now as it can make you jittery. If you have valerian you should take it as it will calm you down. Hope you can get some sleep tonight.    

[NorcBgone]

Thanks - I found 2 in the area. I am going to see if they are meeting over the weekend. If not, I'll find out when so I can check them out. I know from everything i've learned over the last 2 weeks it is vital. I appreciate your help. Should these groups not pan out I will definitely get in touch with you to see if you can help me find one.  

[NorcBgone]

yeah, i have a b complex and potassium on top of my multi-vitamin. i'm a meat n potatoes kind of girl so thats not a prob. I'm mostly afraid of keeping myself awake for reason i've inflicted. LOL  i'm just trying to stay in the spirit of things, which btw is, "I got myself this far into this mess, I have to pay to get out" Surgeries or not, i guess the endless question is why didnt i stop when i started to feel better?

I hope you're doing well, I've been following your story as well.  Keep up the good work!

[jimimiddlefinger]

Hey NBG I ate a TON of foods w/ potassium yesterday and I was up till 3 but slept ok till 10. Not that I'm certain of such luck tonite but I remain hopeful. And BTW bananas are not the best source of potassuim lb per lb. Tomato juice of soup, potatoes, raisins are all better. I googled that. I also have a multi-v w/ lot's of potassium. Oh and I took a long hot soak before bed. W/ epsom salts. I know that helped. Hang in there man...