6 Days CLEAN of Percocet 10/325

[KMK523]

I would like to start by saying I think this forum is wonderful! I have read many posts this past week, and find a little comfort knowing I am not alone! I am a 34 year old mother of 3 amazing kids that need their mom back. My story starts like many others that I have read on this page....I had back surgery 13 years ago and was prescribed percocet for the pain. Over the years I have become more and more dependant on the pills and have drastically increased my dose. TODAY I AM 6 DAYS CLEAN COLD TURKEY METHOD!!! I am proud, but realize I have a long road ahead of me. Before I stopped taking the pills I was up to 16 10/325's each day. The physical withdraw was pure HELL, but I made it through. I must also add the pills have always been prescribed to me from my family physician...240 per month. I have never purchased illegally EVER!!! My question is this......I have good days and I have bad days. Bad days are pure HELL. I feel exhausted, bad headaches, diahreah, and plain SAD. When will this get easier?? Right now the only support I have is my husband. He is great, but can not relate to what I am going through. I am afraid to dare talk to anyone, or even attend a meeting because I know a lot of people and I fear being recognized by someone. No one knows that I have this problem (at least I don't think anyone knows). Any advice would be appreciated....first time poster. Thank you all for listening!!

[KMK523]

Bones and Sarah...thank you!!!! I think all of you are right...I have come this far do why not get rid of them?? I am going to talk to my hubby tonight about that...I know I can't flush them, but he can. I think he is just happy to slowly see his wife coming back. He actually told me he likes/loves me better this way. That was upsetting to me. Now that I'm thinking clearer I just can't believe where or who I was. How am I alive?? I never thought I
Would be here. I'm sad but happy and proud to be on day 7 clean. If my stomach and brain would cooperate I'd be so happy!! I have been eating alot of food since day 4. I never ate like this while on the pills. I would drink coffee all day, pop pills constantly and starve myself for better med effects. I am on the way to a better me. In fact every night at 5:25 pm
I circle the date on the calendar. It's my way of charting my progress. Weird but helps. I look forward to that every night! I will get to where I want to be one day at a time. I think you are all 110% right...the pills need to go. I don't want the mind games telling me to take them. Again thank you all!!!!'

[dominosarah]

Congrats on your clean time!!  You are doing great so keep it going.

Here's the deal with the pills in the house....You gotta get rid of them as they will be calling your name at some point.  Actually they will be screaming your name.  Let them go.  It is very empowering when you do.  Your mind knows you have them and it will start to play some heavy games with you.  You dont need or want them as they are nothing but a death sentence.  We love flushing parties here so do what is right here and get rid of them.  We want you to be successful~~sara

[Bones216]

Hi kmk, I am also a newbie to this site, yesterday in fact. The love and support and encouragement is unlike any other I have ever experienced, almost spiritual. Your story is very similar to mine, with the exception of dosage was quite a bit heavier. I was hooked on norco usually 4 to 7 a day for chronic back pain. I'm a husband and father of two, good paying yet miserable job. I started taking painkillers as prescribed, but you know the story, I soon needed them for every occasion, and I'm embarrassed to say even for church. I came clean to my wife about everything, including the pills I'm sure you have stashed throughout the house. Very, very anxious times telling her about those. You have the support of your loving husband and three beautiful kids, and they want as want their mom back. In my humble opinion you have to get those pills out of the house. I always had good intentions of taking only three in a day and then I would have a bad day at work and then it was four, had to make dinner 5, energy to play with the kids 6, etc.... I don't trust myself and I don't think you trust yourself either because that is what these little devils do. I turned my relatively full prescription bottle over to my wife ugh! Again very anxious time. I've seen the posts from the was and he/she, told me you have to be 110% committed and I think the only way you can be is to get that temptation out of the house. It will be tough, but you can and will do this. Follow all of the extraordinary tips, and support this site offers. Keep posting, it's my new addiction, but makes the time go by. I wish you nothing but success, and will support you 110%.

[KMK523]

Hello thewaz....I will be checking your post out tonight when I am home from work. It is hard to look it up on my phone. Thank you for your support and congrats to you also!!!! Yes I am still holding the pills. I can't seem to get rid of them. I have 121 to be exact!!! My husband tried to get rid of them on day 3....which was this past friday...I almost killed him!!! I need them in the house for that feeling of security. I know I should flush them but I can not bring myself to do it!!!! Like I said I will read your post tonight and let you know after I do so!!!! To everyone posting.....thank you thank you thank you!!! This is helping me a lot!! You are all BEAUTIFUL people!!!!!!!

[Dixiechick72]

Yes she still has them. Security blanket. But I'd still have Hubby put them away so u don't know where they are at. Some like the mental help and it seems to lesson the anxiety of knowing they are there. So I think when u get through ur rough patch have Hubby get rid of them. Ok. Best of luck to everyone. Waz... Still sitting on ur shoulder and I think I saw u on mine!!!;)

[thewaz]

Are you still holding these pills KMK?  Are they available to you?