7 years later im ready !

[DefectedI]

My question is this . Its day two of Slowly coming off of Oxy and percocet  ! I dropped 12.5 the other day so that's one 10 Oxy and half a percocet . Today even though I had 2 10s my head feels buzzed out is this normal ? I am fed up with pain meds !

The only reason I am coming off it is that I hate the drug so much now I don't even care for it ! I was wondering even from coming off the drug slowly for a week will I experience withdraws no matter what ? Today Im dropping 10 mil again . Tomorrow even more .

The next step is getting off of ambient as Iv been on sleeping meds for 7 years as well ! I got rid of the ambien CR and got the instant kind so I can slowly tapper off this drug as well !! Wasted so much life on addiction !! Cant think today and .  who ever reads this will have a hard time . Sorry

I plan to be med free in 1 week

[DefectedI]

hey Readynow ! Hers the weird thing today . I took lower medication but feels like I took more , yet I know I took less ! this doesn't add up . I had chicken for lunch and glass of juice then 2 hours later I felt the effects of Oxy . It feels like I took 2x the amount I would taken . have you felt this before ? Almost feels like I could of taken a lot less today . Very weird !

[readynow81]

Hey there. I just thought I would see how you are doing. I too am new to this site, and have also tapered. I am just 2 days clean now from an ever escalating percocet addiction. I'm sorry to hear that the taper hasn't been any help for you, it seems. And I'm sure the last thing you want is to feel like you're in withdrawals,even mild ones. Fearing that they will get worse when you actually stop all pills.  When I tapered I didn't have too many issues with symptoms. I just got to a point where I felt comfortable and confident enough to just quit. So I was glad to taper first. I couldn't have cared for my child and functioned as much as I've been able to if I had ct'd.  Don't get me wrong, I'm only on day 2 and I'm certainly not out of the woods yet, and I'm not symptom free by any means.... but its been manageable so far. i pray it stays manageable. i just hope u r feeing better. if u feel like youve gotten to a point where you can just ditch tje pills all together, awesome.but get rid of them, flush them, i did! you really have to, and that itself gives you strength. i dont think the benzos are a good idea, period. i worry that u will rely on those and never get to experience being truly clear headed. I'm not judging, its only out of concern. if i can help you at all im happy to. I  understand what you said about not getting too many responses here. I was lucky enough to get help from someone on hete with a few similarities to me and she was incredibly helpful and insightful. So it might not be quantity, but quality. and it looks like youve gotten some good feedback so far. best of luck and you CAN do this. it does get better

[DefectedI]

thanks Lucky ! I know my mother would help me and I could give her the Xanax . She knows my addiction problems and actually ran sacked my house one day looking for pills . So i know she would take them off my hands but a bit worried she would just throw them away and say to bad ...

[DefectedI]

yeah I will try Red bull tomorrow hope it gives me lots of energy ! I was going to do cardio today but I feel to weak . I signed up to my old gym and a lot of faces where there looking at me like what happened . lol ... I was 185 could bench 265 12 times so lets just say I can now only bench probably 60 pounds . man that's sad . I picked up a curl bar with 15 pounds on it and my right arm felt pain after 6 reps ! Really !!! man if only I could stop time and reverse my faults .



Sorry about my few posts just typing off this feeling .

[Lucky2bAlive]

Be very careful with the xanax..it is just as addicting and a HELL to come off. I am prescribed both xanax and valium and ran into a problem with it at first but now I only take it once week at most. Just use 1mg before bed it def does help a great deal with opiate withdrawal. Or if there is someone that you can give it to that can give you if daily that would be an even better idea. I just would not take it any longer then 3 days or youll be in a whole new mess.

[DefectedI]

I have a bottle of Xanax but very scared to try it . I am an addict and the last thing I needis a new drug . but maybe it will help kick the Oxy / percs