9 days!!!!

[SmilingBright]

Well I made 9 days today. And it actually didn't feel like an eternity like I thought it would.  Amazingly enough I haveng had many things to complain about w wds.  
I get a few sneezing fits.  That's totally ok w me. Lol.  No biggie right !!
At night the last few nights I get a little rls   But I take a couple of magesium pills when that happens.  
I also have limited myself to a cup of coffee in the morning to prevent myself from getting too anxious during day.  That seens to be helping a lot.
I think w the combo of good vitamins I've been taking b12, b6, 5htp, and lots of rhodolia during the day, it carries me through my day. Mixed w a good diet and excercise (for endorphins).  My days have been great!!!
Thanking God.  I'm almost in the double digits baby!!!! Almost 10 days.  Praise God.  Definitely no looking back now.   Feels too good to be free of this junk!!!!

I'm very aware that  I will have to keep my guard up against this beast probably forever.  As I'm prepared to do so.  With God on my side who can be against me??
Have a great day my friends.  God bless

[ricart70]

great job.  don't go back  !  :)

[toothfairie]

awesome!  great attitude as always....and btw i still sneeze every day...lol always comes in 2's!  but i'm used to it now....haha!  congrats girlie on those 9 days!  you be on double digits tmrw and before you know it triple digits!  you rock!!  

[SmilingBright]

Thanks ricart. I will keep looking forward.

Toothfarie, thanks girl!!  Yeah the sneezing doesn't bother me. Lol. I can handle that.
I will have a few tests coming up that I will need to pass. We have a few events that usually makes me extremely anxious. That normally I would just take a pill and go w the flow for.  But its not an option now.  So will have to pass some tests to make me more confident in my sobriety. The next 2 weekends I will be tested.  So will need some prayers please.

[toothfairie]

you got it girl!!  will be praying for you...and you will get thru it with flying colors!!  just keep that attitude and you will make it....you've been so strong thru all this....and my counselor says...don't worry about what's ahead, even 1 day....just focus on today!!  and tell yourself you will do great and get thru it!  

[SmilingBright]

You are certainly right on key.  Lol. Almost forgot about that.  Not worrying about tnrw!!  Silly u get to thinking about certain things and forget to live in the moment.   Thank u my friend!!!!   God will get me through this.  No looking back!!!!!!!!!!

[toothfairie]

well i still do it too....but i think back to what she said and it calms me down a bit....i'm a worrier by nature and i'm trying to get better and start my new life without stressing so much!!  it's not good for you!  haha  

[FourJays]

NO lack of confidence for you - you have made it 9 DAYS with ZERO pills.  You can handle anything; besides what is the alternative?  Pills are not an option in this NEW life that you have worked very hard to get.  Just keep up the attitude that got you here - to today - and you will be FINE.  When you feel anxiety creep up, take a deep breath and think "I am CLEAN and it feels SO GOOD" (between sneezes . . . lol).  

I still sneeze every day too, mostly just in the morning, but mine come in 3's!!!  (even the fam holds off on the "Bless You"s.until #3!).  

Have a great weekend - stay strong, you are gonna be fine :)

[YesLife4Me]

Ha!  My sneezing fits come in 3's!!   People laugh at me when I sneeze because I have never been the ah-choo out the mouth kind of sneezer.  I sneeze nasally and it sounds like I am trying to hold it back and be all lady like.  LOL!    

9 days is freaking awesome!  You are about to turn another corner towards freedom.  There is no going back now!   Using is NOT an option.  Stay strong in the weak moments and keep working your program.  The moment we are in is all we really have and for an addict, living in the past or worrying about the future is deadly.  Good job...and by the way...love your screen name!  

[EvolverU]

Big hug on your 9!! days. You're are doing really well. I've a feeling that within a month or two you'll be putting us all to shame. I always double sneezed myself. Now it's occasional single sneezes - still sweating though. It's all good -- we're reversing the process and cleaning out. Truly an initiation - a rebirth into a life we never dared dream of before.

[SmilingBright]

Aww u guys have me tearing up over here.   Thank u so much.

I know it's not an option to take anymore pills.  I will not!!!!!   I usually get anxious when having dinner dates w hubby's people from work.   But this time will be different.  I will choose to Not be anxious for anything!!!!!! I will get through this.  It's not for a few weekends.  Don't know why I started stressing in first place.  I guess it's normal.  But will not Dwell on it.  I will be confident and do great!!!!!  Period!!  

The support from u guys are just amazing!!!!! I can't wait to be posting 6 mo, 1 yr, 5 yrs clean!!!!!  

I promise I won't be posting ev day lol.  Just getting some needed confidence from all u awesome friends( tears)
Hugs thanks ladies!!!!!!!

[Bubulous]

You can make it through the dinner bud :)  I know this will be a true test for you but I have confidene that you will make us proud.  Just be yourself and enjoy it...
Bubby

[SmilingBright]

Thanks bubby.  U know I get a little nervous in some social situations.  Yes this will be a test for me.  
Thanks my friend.  Hoping u are good on your end!!!  Miss u

[SmilingBright]

Since today was my first day off in 5 days I guess I had  too much time to think
This morning.  Lol. Not always the best thing. Haha. Now I need to get my butt in gear and go make myself workout to get some much needed endorphins pumping to get rid of this anxiety.    
Then I know I will feel better!!!!  

[dominosarah]

Good idea to get busy!  You have a great attitude so keep that going!  Congrats on 9 days clean!!  Keep posting too, i like to hear your updates!

[SmilingBright]

Aww thank u sara.  I was hoping I wasn't being too obnoxious w my posts.
Trying to keep busy.  But my body is telling me I'm tired today;( dang it
Will keep moving forward and continue to beat this beast!!!!! Thanks

[SmilingBright]

Wow.   I have found my new favorite worship song:::
Oceans by hillsong united

Your GRACE abounds in deepest waters!!!!!

Ck this song out wow!! So good

[SmilingBright]

Well I made it through my day. Was pretty anxious earlier today. But survived it. ;)
Had lots of errands to do and really didn't have it in me to wkout today.  I really wanted my endorphins today!! But I have to give myself some slack considering im only 9 days clean and will need a little time to get all my energy back. Guess I was just really tired from my work week.
Oh well.  Not gonna dwell on it too much!
Moving on.
Hopefully I can make myself wkout tnrw and it will be a better day.
Hope all my buddies had a great day today.
Hugs

[ricart70]

great job!!   keep it up it will get easier

[SmilingBright]

Thanks ricart!  Double digits tnrw!! Yay!! Looking forward to a better day tnrw.

[toothfairie]

double digits!!  you go girl!  and the anxiety will lessen.....it drove me nuts for about a week but i just practiced my breathing exercises and think about something relaxing....

you are doing great!  anxiety may come and go but just look at is as a healing process....this too shall pass my dear!  and you've been working your body pretty hard so maybe it does need a rest...lol  :)  (hugs)

[SmilingBright]

Thanks my little toothfarie.  ;)
I'm doing much better.  Hope u had a good day my friend!!  Yes double digits tnrw.  Yay!!;)

[EvolverU]

Toothfaerie's on the money about the breathing exercises! So, helpful for stress. If you want details PM me. All good things your way!
A.

[ActingBrandNew]

This is great! Your doing soooo good!

[SmilingBright]

Thanks guys.   Tnrw will be a great day!! Hugs