Addicted to Oxymorphone...HELP

[MissB23]

My mother has been on pain killers for the past 5 years, they started her at 500Mg of vicodin, to 1000 of vicodin, to Lortab, then to norcos, now to Oxy-morphone, a RX called "Opana ER". Ever since she got these, I would take them, I started out taking some vicodin here and there, to a full on addiction to the Opana ER, over time of course. My tolerance is so high, I take the same dosage she does daily, which is 4-5 20MG tablets a day. I need them just to feel normal. I have no pain. I dont know how to get off of them. I got off of them once for a month straight, but soon found myself going threw the medicine cabnit again to start this horrible cycle all over again.

It is hard because they are at my reach any time I want. My mother now knows about my addiction,(after years of her not realizing it) and enables it unfortunately .

I do not have the money nor insurance to get to proper help.

What can I do to get off of this, I want to be normal again.

I would say that i've been on the opana for about 1 yea rnow, on a daily basis, about 100-120 MG a day. Ive tried the "weining off" I cant do it

Can anyone help me?

[MissB23]

"I know Dr's are very strict with not filling scripts early and if you and your mom are taking them, aren't they gone very fast?"

If only they were strict on that, she gets a large amount 180 a month, and she gets them filled about a week or so early each month, because of me, she runs out, I know its a horrible cycle, but I can seem to talk her into giving me a few eveyrtime she gets more, she only takes about 2 or 3 a day (supposed to be six) but she doesn't need that many, so I pretty much take  the rest, right now I am on a day to day process, I dont get it everyday, but I do a few times a week and when I do its only 2 for the day (which is way better then the 5/day is was taking), I dont get the physical W/D's anymore, it's all mental now, and the only way i can describe it is my life is "boring" when im not buzzed on pills. I think when am I going to get that next pill, which one of my friends can get be something if my mom cant, I sometimes get it from friends, so my mom doesnt worry to much about my habit, but she knows its bad,

I think I just am not happy with my life right now, so I need to re-evaluate where I want to be and what makes me happy, and WHY I am taking pills to escape and from what am I wanting to escape from (sorry for the ramblings, alot on my mind)

I always wish I could go back to the days when I could wake up jump outa bed and be happy just to see the sunshine, not have to reach in my purse crush up a pill, and swallow it down just to get my morning started.

thanks for listening

[worried878]

well...sounds like if ur mom locked them up u may be ok..does she know u r addicted?  can u tell her...perhaps she can help...if she think u hurt a mother will do alot to help her child not hurt...does she know u have a problem?

[bluespence]

Hello! You have come to the right place for help getting off narcotics...so I am just curious, how are you able to take so many? I mean if they are for your mom, I am assuming she has pain, so does she suffer with the pain or is she no longer in pain? I know Dr's are very strict with not filling scripts early and if you and your mom are taking them, aren't they gone very fast? If you want off the pills you are going to have to have no access to the pills, so I agree with the previous post, maybe your mom should lock them up and hide the key from you. The problem with that though, if you truly want the pills you will find a way to get them. So first I think you need to ask yourself if you are truly ready to stop using and secondly cold turkey would be best. I know for myself, I would not be able to taper either...so really you need to keep readin here because there are a lot of posts here that will describe the withdrawals you will have, but you can do it without insurance you just have to be determined to get your life back. Hope this helps..good luck! Keep us posted.

[TrayCee]

Your already ahead of the game if you've done it once.  The scariest part is not knowing what to expect.  These are SERIOUSLY strong meds though.  If it were me I absolutly would try a taper, even if its a short one before jumping off at the dose your on.  It will be next to impossible to quit if there always available.. Maybe your Mom should hide them or even better lock them up.  Also in you post you said you started with 500 mg Vicodin.  I think you mean 5mg then10mg...  just an FYI.

Good luck to you