Getting off my pain med NORCO

[PrinterAP]

I take Narco. I've never smoked, Drank, or did any drugs of any kind in 40 yrs until I had a severe car accident leaving me with chronic pain. I have complications from the car accident and have taken Narci for 5 yrs. I don't know how bad my pain is because every 4 hrs I take Narco. When I run s but low I'll wean down a few a day but even that I have pain. I have been reading  here and now see that cutting down can actually increase your pain. My life is almost useless . I don't want to get out of bed, leave the house or do anything I once did. I'm always depressed. I'm wondering if it's thr Narco that has caused my depression. I hate going to my pain Dr. I hate having to plan everything around my pills and making sure I get to the DR for my refills. Now I don't know if some of my pain is actually from when I drop
The dose. Withdrawal symptoms and not my actual pain. I hate my life and what thus drug has done to me. I can deal with physical pain if I'd get my joy for life back. If I'd want to get yo and do things and live life to the fullest. I don't evrb get dressed. I feel so sad for my husband who is so good to me but I do nothing for him. I am thinking I should get off the Narco because any benefit it gives me is nothing compared to the negative impact on my life. I'm lost and don't evrn know where to start. I'm thinking I should go to a hospital since I'm feel so depressed and want to punish myself. This drug is evil and fir a few hours after I take it I'm happy unt it wears off-- vicious cycle I'm in! Help anyone! Chirp

[NeverAgain127]

Hi honey and welcome.   First off:  STOP the self hate.  You are NOT a bad person...or useless, or any of those terrible things you are telling yourself.  

We're all in the same boat.   Opiates are horrible meds; they make you a big pile of MUSH.  I would stay in my pajamas all day, every day, on my oxy, and I took them for 8 years.   Everything was just a shade of gray.  I looked awful, my hair was dry, I was always constipated, and those pills ran my whole life.  

I spent so much time worrying about having enough; getting to the doctors office to pick up the script...what happened if he forgot and it was a weekend?    I too, would play games with my dosage...weaning myself down a bit and going through the awful initial withdrawals...the leg aches, the tearing eyes, and then, YES, got that fresh new bottle, and I'd be okay again.  Except I wasn't.

I'm willing to bet 99% of what you are feeling is because of the meds.  They just take over your soul.   Yes, get off them.  I would strongly recommend telling your doctor, and see if he agrees to tapering you off them.  You will still get withdrawals, but it won't be as brutal then if you just stop.

Coming off opiates is awful; but it's bearable.   We can give you LOTS of really good suggestions to help mitigate some of the more terrible symptoms you will experience,  The good news is that it is temporary, and the minute you 'jump off' you are on your way to getting yourself back.

Remember:
1. You are a GOOD PERSON.   God loves you, YOU should love you, and you are not terrible just because these pills got the better of you.  It happens to pretty much everyone who takes them, with some small exceptions.  
2. Doctor:  Talk to him/her..there is no shame here.  They will be impressed that you want to get off them.
3. Make a plan.   You can google the "Thomas Recipe" which has all kinds of stuff to help withdrawals easier.  Post here every day and let us know how you are doing.
4. Aftercare:  You will need support once the acute withdrawals are over.  But I'm getting ahead of myself.

You're in a funk because that is what opiates do.  They dull everything:  Your smell, taste, touch, sex drive, motivation, ambition, the works.  I hate them..   And I'm pretty pissed off at the doctors who keep us hooked on them.  

Good luck...let us know what you plan to do.  There is TONS of support on here.  You're in a big club, sweetie...welcome to the gang!

[PrinterAP]

This is just to tell you all I'm sorry for my Typos. I'm on a cell phone and not feeling well. I hope you can make out what I was trying to say. I'm going to keep coming back here because you all are so motivating ! I hate myself more than anything and how I'm not being all I was meant to Be. I think a little Physical Pain is nothing when I look at all the negatives being addicted to a drug is doing. I hope I can get off the NORCO! This is very scarey to think of life with no pills! Either get off the pills or die. I have no life anyway this way. Thank you all so much for this site!