Almost Day 10. :)

[Yellowcandygirl]

Still feeling great. Wanted to share some happy news here with my new friends. Today I became an aunt again! My brother and his wife had a baby girl tonight. And guess what? I had many hours today in the waiting room thinking that pretty much every occasion before I would be taking yellow pills all day long. And for some reason today it really hit me how awesome it felt to not be waiting to take my next pill or any of that. It truly felt very free. And maybe because it was such an emotional day it really made me realize that I now have a new way to deal with things. And that's to just feel it. Feel it all. All the happiness, sadness, or whatever. My body and mind is starting to feel things and just deal with everyday stuff where I normally would have grabbed some pills. I feel very proud of myself. And I wanted to says I'm still reading and making my cake pops to stay busy not able to attend meetings this week but will start on Monday. I'm actually very excited and can't wait to be with people that know what I've just gone through.  As I said a few days ago, on Friday I had an offer of pills and declined them and told the source that I'm out for good. And she actually said good for you!  Lol. I'm done with the cycle of running around getting them. Done with not having extra cash and done with the entire crap that ties us down with this addiction. I feel like I'm living life again. I cry at songs on the radio. I feel more loving and present with my husband and kids. I'm happy at work. I have to stop and remind myself that it's just me and I feel great all on my own.

Thank you friends. And I'm cheering for each one of us.

J

[lild713]

Woo hoo

[jifmoc]

OMG, my dealer texted me today too, I told her "no more" and and she said "Good for you" too!!! That is sooo weird. My God, we are all the same!:)

That is amazing that you feel that good on day 8. And that you are excited to go to meetings. I go every day. It helps a lot. Actually, no, it's probably saving me. Otherwise all I've done in the past is fantasize about those stupid yellow pills too. Ugh!!

Anywho, congrats on all you victories:)