Update - first music night clean...

[kyle505]

I made it. Things went pretty well; I didn't play that great, partly because I haven't played for a couple of months. The only problem I had was when the clock struck 3 p.m. - that's when I'd usually take my pills. So instead I went to get something to eat, rode it out, and around 5 or so I was pretty much back to "new" normal. The guys were complimentary, but as the saying goes, I am my own worst critic. I am looking forward to the next jam - progress.
Note to Lulu - Vadder is one of my favorite singers/songwriters. I've seen the Pearl Jam documentary advertised on Netflix. I'll check it out. Thanks as always.

[kyle505]

Sandy:
Thanks, and I think I was jus pretty rusty. And a little nervous, not knowing if I could get back in to it, unassisted, if you will. As the night wore on I felt more myself. We'll see what the next one brings.

[sandstone27]

Hi Kyle,

Glad to hear your first night out went so well.  I'm betting you sounded alot better than you're giving yourself credit for.  As you yourself said, you're adjusting to the "new" normal you, and that takes time.  

Well wishes to you,

Sandy :)

[kyle505]

Thanks to all. I have my drums set up in my house; upstairs, away from the rest of the family. I plan to start practicing again. One more thing to keep me busy. I love music; when I listen or play, it, for a lack of better terms, takes me away. In the few photos I have of me playing, I always have my eyes closed. Well, off to do my household chores. Not my favorite thing, but still not bad at all.

[snakejones]

I'm so glad to hear from you! Don't worry about feeling a little rusty. Takes a little time reestablishing brain talking to hands..... It sounds like you had a good time, so do it again. Think back to when you were first starting to get good at drumming. Remember how exciting that was? Well, being clean can be the gateway to a second chance at that kind of excitement! Have you still got a practice area with your kit set up?
Thinking about you reminds me of all the great drummers who didn't get a second chance. Play for them, Kyle. Margaret xoxox

[IwillDoThis]

Will do, I figured this was a good time to do it - I'll have two weeks off before I go and then I will literally be in the middle of nowhere for two weeks - it is a VERY scary step.  

[lulu747]

(((KYLE)))

So proud of you.  I knew you could do it.  Of course we are our own worst critics...And sober even more so!  Treat yourself.  Your courage deserves reward....I am sure you were amazing...The most important thing is, you are doing what you love and expressing your soul's desires.  Art changes life.  It is necessary to life.  Keep shining on with your beautiful gift...
I love Pearl Jam.  Eddie Vedder is a genius and a truly beautiful soul.  I'm going to watch 20 tonight again...It inspires me.

Did I mention how proud of you I am?
Have a wonderful Sunday my friend...
Lu

[kyle505]

IwillDoThis:
Thanks so much for your support. It was the first big "social" hurdle, and I'm glad it's over, and that it was such a positive experience.
I don't leave for my trip back east until April 1st; coincidentally, that will be my 90 days anniversary! What a way to start my first travel adventure without meds.
Be sure to keep us posted about your trip and how it was clean; I'd be interested in any feedback or tips you might have.
Thanks again...

[IwillDoThis]

OMG I've been waiting for your post!!!!!  I am so proud of you and I had a feeling everything was gonna be just fine.  You should feel great to have gotten over this first hurdle.  Your trip is this week also right?  I leave next  Saturday for two weeks - my first trip in years without pills, once I've gotten back I will have almost 30 days under my belt which I am really looking forward to!  Kyle you rock (literally!).  Congrats