I have read some postings regarding detoxification from prescription pain medication. One said to make sure you get valium, vitamins, etc. and another referred to tapering. This is my first, and hopefully last, detox so I am unsure what those things mean. I have not yet spoken to my doctor about this. I haven't told anyone, actually. This is the first I'm talking about it. I have been taking some form of hydrocodone (Norco, Lortab, Vicoprofen) for a little over a year now, on average 6/day, sometimes as many as 10/day. I "find" people in between prescriptions from my doctors to replenish my supply. I am having my neck surgery next month, finally, and I am very worried about the withdrawal I am going to experience. I have began to wonder if I could differentiate the real pain in my neck and back from the pain I have when I have no pills left or very little left. I am so scared and so sad all of the time and it's all because of the physical, mental, and emotional effects of these narcotics. I'm ashamed of myself and have lost all ambition. I just want my life back, I want a sense of control back in my life. I feel hopeless and powerless, miserable and ashamed every single day. Every night, I cry myself to sleep, promising that tomorrow will be a pill-free day and it never happens. I always seem to find a reason, or excuse, to take another pill. Then I will say only 2 today, that doesn't work either. I have a two year old daughter who needs her energetic, fun-loving mother back. I have already destroyed my relationship with her father, my ex-fiance. I really need to pick up the pieces and put myself back together. Can anyone help me? Please give me some advice on how to detox, what will help, how long it will take. . . anything, please.
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