Any advise to help me quit?

[Lsufan3103]

Ok, posting on here is actually a big step for me. I am finally ready to give all of this up for good. I have been taking any kind of opiate that I could get my hands on (mostly hydro's) every day for so many years now that I can't even remember how long. (sad right?) I almost got a divorce because of it. Thankfully, my wife has given me a second chance at life. I tried to taper down and of course that didn't work. So next, I tried to get away from all temptation for a week to detox. Unfortunately, when I got back I relapsed. Continued my abuse for a few more months and continued to lie to my wife because that's what we addicts are best at, but I want so badly to quit. The problem is that I just don't have the energy to function in normal society without something. Well, I'm just sick and tired of having to depend on a little pill to live. I want to live my own life. A friend of mine told me about suboxone so I decided to give it a try. I illegally purchaced some from a guy I know and have been taking 1/2 of an 8mg each day and I have been doing great with just that. I only have 3 left and when those are gone, I'm not getting anything else if I can help it. I don't know how I am going to feel by then when they run out but nothing can feel worse than loosing the family that I love so much. Can someone please give me some advise to help me from relapsing again? I want so badly for this to work out. I don't want to loose everything that I love and I'm just scared that I won't be able to stay clean. Someone please help!!!

[wait2long]

for starters, look in the phone book...look under substance abuse, look under mental health, look under addiction facilities...and just ask anyone or place that you call if they know of a place that offers therapy to people that have no insurance, or thatsis based on income....they are around and most states have quite a lot of them,  but you n=may have to do some footwork to actually find them, most places like this dont advertise...
you may even try to call your local hospital, they may be able to point you in the right direction...most hospitals have a substance abuse therapist that may be able to hook you up with the right agency...

[Lsufan3103]

I'm not sure.... where do I look to find out?

[wait2long]

well i dont have insurance either...but i did manage to find a place that i can get therapy based on my income...is there anywhere like that in your area?
a state or government run mental health facility?

[sadinmichigan]

does Louisianna have any type of government programs...(not the meth on) You should check it out online..Michigan has them for..of course the  m word.and suboxone..just a thought..or find out how much a clinic charges for there sub..

[Lsufan3103]

No, I don't have insurance and I fear that I will need some support to stay clean. I tried once but failed. If I fail again, I fear that I am going to loose my wife and step-children for good. I just don't think that I can do it alone. That's why I gave the sub's a try. I just don't know what else I can do to stay clean when I get off of them.

[wait2long]

well you will need outside support too hun?
do you have  insurance?