Any advise to help me quit?

[Lsufan3103]

Ok, posting on here is actually a big step for me. I am finally ready to give all of this up for good. I have been taking any kind of opiate that I could get my hands on (mostly hydro's) every day for so many years now that I can't even remember how long. (sad right?) I almost got a divorce because of it. Thankfully, my wife has given me a second chance at life. I tried to taper down and of course that didn't work. So next, I tried to get away from all temptation for a week to detox. Unfortunately, when I got back I relapsed. Continued my abuse for a few more months and continued to lie to my wife because that's what we addicts are best at, but I want so badly to quit. The problem is that I just don't have the energy to function in normal society without something. Well, I'm just sick and tired of having to depend on a little pill to live. I want to live my own life. A friend of mine told me about suboxone so I decided to give it a try. I illegally purchaced some from a guy I know and have been taking 1/2 of an 8mg each day and I have been doing great with just that. I only have 3 left and when those are gone, I'm not getting anything else if I can help it. I don't know how I am going to feel by then when they run out but nothing can feel worse than loosing the family that I love so much. Can someone please give me some advise to help me from relapsing again? I want so badly for this to work out. I don't want to loose everything that I love and I'm just scared that I won't be able to stay clean. Someone please help!!!

[sadinmichigan]

WHAT!!! 4 other computers..=LMAO

[wait2long]

yes...i have 3 boys and a husband...LOL!  they each have their own computer...LOL!  
maybe i should set them up all in 1 room, this way i can have 5 conversations going at once...LOL!  dont think i could do it, my boys would be PI**ED OFF!

[Lsufan3103]

You mean to take a 1/4 each day instead of a 1/2? Yea, I can try. I'm hoping that I can be fine with that. My problem is that I couldn't step down on the hydro's that I have been so very addicted to but since I have been taking these, I haven't needed the hydro's. I guess you could say that this IS my step down from them and so far it has been working. I have been feeling ok (not great, but ok) on these. I'm hoping that when I quit these, I don't need the hydro's any more and won't have such a rough withdrawal from them as I would the hydro's. Is there a withdrawal from sub's?

[sadinmichigan]

girl you are funny...LMFAO...

[wait2long]

where are ya hun?

[bmc1976]

night all! I'm heading to bed.