Any advise to help me quit?

[Lsufan3103]

Ok, posting on here is actually a big step for me. I am finally ready to give all of this up for good. I have been taking any kind of opiate that I could get my hands on (mostly hydro's) every day for so many years now that I can't even remember how long. (sad right?) I almost got a divorce because of it. Thankfully, my wife has given me a second chance at life. I tried to taper down and of course that didn't work. So next, I tried to get away from all temptation for a week to detox. Unfortunately, when I got back I relapsed. Continued my abuse for a few more months and continued to lie to my wife because that's what we addicts are best at, but I want so badly to quit. The problem is that I just don't have the energy to function in normal society without something. Well, I'm just sick and tired of having to depend on a little pill to live. I want to live my own life. A friend of mine told me about suboxone so I decided to give it a try. I illegally purchaced some from a guy I know and have been taking 1/2 of an 8mg each day and I have been doing great with just that. I only have 3 left and when those are gone, I'm not getting anything else if I can help it. I don't know how I am going to feel by then when they run out but nothing can feel worse than loosing the family that I love so much. Can someone please give me some advise to help me from relapsing again? I want so badly for this to work out. I don't want to loose everything that I love and I'm just scared that I won't be able to stay clean. Someone please help!!!

[Lsufan3103]

It makes sense. I've tried to stop all together before I started the sub but couldn't do it, that's why I started taking this instead. I thought that maybe if i did, then it would be easier to come off of this than it would all the pills that I have been taking. This was a form of step down for me, ya know? Do you think that 2 weeks of sub will be enough to eliminate the withdrawals of all of the hydro's that I have been taking?

[sadinmichigan]

see..i told help is on the way..and she knows what she's talking about..thanks wait2..xo

[wait2long]

my advice is to start to taper your morning dose down starting with tomorrow morning...1 week on sub and i really think you will be fine,
have you tried to stop taking it at all yet?

but you still need to taper slow...its just the best overall way to do it, even when on sub short term.  tomorrow cut 1 mg out of your dose, (if you have to use a razor to cut it, then please do) stay on 3 mgs for 5 days, then take another 1 mg off your dose, stay there for about 5 days...do this until you are down to 1 mg, at this point take 1 mg every day for 3 days, then 1 mg every other day, then every 3rd day, then every 4th day and so on, etc....did this make sense the way i explained it to you?  if not please ask as many questions as you need to...

[sadinmichigan]

your welcome...hang in there friend...and yes we all try to help.(well most of us) theres always a cook somewhere once in awhile lol

[Lsufan3103]

I've been taking it for a week now, 4mg in the morning. Half of an 8mg, cause thats when it's the worst. Right when I wake up. And I've got enough to last me for another week and then that's it. I don't have a Rx for it, it was given to me by a friend who wants to see me quit cause he knows that I want it so badly.

[Lsufan3103]

thanks you guys, it's people like you two that this place was intended for if i had to guess. I don't understand why people get so angry when all we try to do is help. That's what this is all about right? Helping each other?