Any advise to help me quit?

[Lsufan3103]

Ok, posting on here is actually a big step for me. I am finally ready to give all of this up for good. I have been taking any kind of opiate that I could get my hands on (mostly hydro's) every day for so many years now that I can't even remember how long. (sad right?) I almost got a divorce because of it. Thankfully, my wife has given me a second chance at life. I tried to taper down and of course that didn't work. So next, I tried to get away from all temptation for a week to detox. Unfortunately, when I got back I relapsed. Continued my abuse for a few more months and continued to lie to my wife because that's what we addicts are best at, but I want so badly to quit. The problem is that I just don't have the energy to function in normal society without something. Well, I'm just sick and tired of having to depend on a little pill to live. I want to live my own life. A friend of mine told me about suboxone so I decided to give it a try. I illegally purchaced some from a guy I know and have been taking 1/2 of an 8mg each day and I have been doing great with just that. I only have 3 left and when those are gone, I'm not getting anything else if I can help it. I don't know how I am going to feel by then when they run out but nothing can feel worse than loosing the family that I love so much. Can someone please give me some advise to help me from relapsing again? I want so badly for this to work out. I don't want to loose everything that I love and I'm just scared that I won't be able to stay clean. Someone please help!!!

[wait2long]

ok...i am wondering this because right now, you should not be dependent on sub at all, 7 days really isnt long enough for you to get addicted tomit, so i am thinking you should try a quicker taper off sub so this doesnt happen...
tomorrow, i want you to cut back to 2 mgs in the morning...and stay there for 4 days...
it takes 4-5 days to really be able to tell how your body will react to this change...
do you think you can do this?  or do you want to try the slower way?

[Lsufan3103]

no, not yet. I've been taking them every morning for a week now. I feel like I can't get out of bed unless I have SOMETHING to make me feel right. If I don't, I feel miserable until I do.

[wait2long]

i'm sorry, my question wasnt clear...i meant , have you tried to stop yaking the sub yet?  just stop taking it?
if you have, what happens?

[sadinmichigan]

hun..i'm not sure..i hope though..i think you should try what wait2long told you..She will be a great support for you..and so will we..right brian...you still around?
Lisa

[Lsufan3103]

k

[wait2long]

first off let me warn you, my computer is acting a little funky right now, if we lose each other just hang on, i have 4 other computers i can go to if i have to...
give me a few minutes to type my response to you...but be patient, computer is deathly slow right now...LOL!
be back in a few minutes...ok?