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[SOULCRUSHERFAB]

Hi guys, i know i have not been around here for a while but i am back. Reason why i am back is that i need help, just a quick recap on my situation, i am addicted to perks and i take a lot of them about 50 to 60 a day and i have been trying to tapper off a bit at a time now i am at 8 perks 3 to 4 times a day, the past 2 days i decided to cut it right off, last night i only took 2 of them and took 3 sleep eze to give me that drowsiness, i was in and out of sleep and i was getting the chills and sweating a lot, i know because the times i woke up to go to the bathroom i could feel that my tshirt was wet, woke up this morning and my body is in so much pain, like a champ i got up and got ready to come to work, i took 4 perks to keep my going for the day but what do i do later on, what can i take to help me calm down, i refuse to get more perks, at this time i do not have any left. Will the sleep eze help out at night? what about during the day, what can i take to help out. Anybody, please help me out.

Thanks

Fabio

[FourJays]

I am so happy to hear it......you are on your way!  Keep updating; this is such great news!

[clean_in_ks]

How COOL is that?  Your dr called you w/rehab info?  And you already called the rehab..... and were honest?  YOU GO...FABIO!!!......(and kudos to your heart dr, too)

Rehab is a GREAT idea..... I'm so glad you are open to it.....it will really change your life!  With your heart surgery history and your VERY high intake of percs......going to rehab will BLESS you big time!!
Some of us say, "but I don't have time to take off work?".....well, if we don't MAKE time to get well.......the drugs will definitely do "their time" on us and make us sicker and sicker.  It's progressive......either progressively healing or progressively killing ourselves.  We get to choose.....and I LOVE having the power of choice..

As for that Italian dinner.....oowhee.....it's mornin here and I STILL could smell the garlic from your kitchen, hahaha!   Seriously, what a GREAT and KIND thought, Fabio.  Just think....after you get clean and those drugs aren't running your life.....you can put your executive chef hat on and cook up some "fabio" (haha) meals.....! Heck, you'll be saving so much $ from not having to buy 50 perk/day.....you'll be rich enough to fly us up there!!! Hahaha!  JK, but it sounds fun anyway:):)
You're on your way.......and I sure hope you'll bop back in and update us when you know more.  
Ciao~

[SOULCRUSHERFAB]

Ok, update. I called the rehab center this morning and they just called me back. They asked me a bunch of questions and i was strait up with them. Now i have to wait for another call back from a pain management doctor. I am on my way guys, thanks, i feel good already.

[FourJays]

An Italian dinner - WOW, that sounds awesome!  My daughter is a recently graduated pastry chef - she could do the desert!!! And best of all we are Italian (well, who isn't when it comes to a good dinner, right?

Seriously, it is SO good to hear about the rehab center and that you are open to the idea.  This was your heart doctor you saw earlier that day and he later called you with the information?  So, telling him was for sure the right thing to do.  You are on your way to beating this all . .  keep you hopes high; you can do it.  Let us know how it goes when you get the rehab center info.  Good luck . . . in the meantime . . . slow. slow. slow.  You will beat this addiction and get the pills out of your life for good!
Julie

[SOULCRUSHERFAB]

First of all, I want to thank you and everyone else for the support i am getting from everybody, I wish I could get everybody in one place and cook you guys a great Italian dinner because i used to be an executive chef in the past just to say thank you.
Ok, here is what happened last night around 7pm, i got a call from my doctor giving me some info for a rehab center that is not to far from me here is the website www.asyr.ca, i am not sure if this will work but i am going to call them as soon as they open and see what the outcome is. I understand what everybody is telling me that there is hope and i will keep an open mind about it and i will see what this place is all about.
This morning i took 11 perks and i will try to stretch it out as long as possible, i will try to stretch it out till around 1pm and i will take 8 perks and not my usual 10. Before if i took 10 perks around 5am my next 10 perks would be around 10am. I wish myself luck and see what happens.
Thanks a lot everybody for the support it really means a lot to me.
I will keep everybody posted and see how i made out with the taper and with the rehab center.

[clean_in_ks]

Don't give up hope, Fabio.....I had a similar experience two days ago and wanted to share a couple of thoughts w/you.  The dr that you saw today was your Cardio Specialist, right?  He did all your bypass surgeries?  If that is correct, he is just unable to prescribe/counsel/administer help in this whole other "field" of medicine....like pain/addiction/withdrawal meds, etc.
He chose to SPECIALIZE in cardio/the heart and is probably a FANTASTIC heart surgeon......it's not that he doesn't want to help you....he just wants you to see another dr who DOES specialize in pain/addiction and w/drawal meds being administered.
Just two days ago, I went back for a dr appt with the fabulous back surgeon that did my back surgery.  I shared my ongoing chronic pain and other issues I'm still having.  At first, he seemed to come off "disinterested", but really, HIS speciality, and he is one of the most sought after back surgeons in the area, is SURGERY and correcting spinal conditions.  

What I guess I'm trying to say, is my heart really wanted him to be able to tell me what is STILL causing my pain, what can I do NOW? and yet, because my xrays show my cages/titanium bars and screws are all right where they should be and bone is now re-growing where it should be....HIS job with me is done.......as a speciality back surgeon.....he cannot help me.

Your cardiologist is in a similar position.  He just wants you to get help from another dr in the medical field who is "well versed" or "specialized" in what you need help for NOW.  ??Am I making any sense??

I know you feel like this first "reach out" attempt didn't go as you had hoped, but PLEASE don't lose heart.  Just because you take so many percs per day doesn't mean you have no way out of this.  Yeah, you will probably need to get some (for now) to keep your blood levels up so you can function w/o major cardiac stress.....but that doesn't mean you have to take 10 at a time.....5 times a day does it?  
And, getting an appt made ASAP to get specific help from a dr knowledgeable about pain and addiction will give you a new goal to work towards here.  We just have to do "the next right thing". HOPE IS STILL ALIVE AND WELL...it's just that for me, on Monday, my HOPE on Monday was in my back surgeon having answers for me.....he didn't.....I understand why now.....but I still left there disillusioned like you.  We just have to be willing to take the steps.....and keep at it until we get the answers we need.
Just keep seeking....and taking some new actions.....you really CAN be free of this addiction....your life is depending on it....and you sound like a GREAT guy to me~