Bidding farewell to my life on pills.

[6stringrock]

I came off of hydrocodone a few weeks ago only to break out with the shingles and have to go back on it along with neurontin. The pain was so bad. I think the worst pain I have ever felt. I tried to go through it without anything but the pain was just to unbearable. Now the shingles have cleared up. The nerves in that area are still getting back to normal and every once in a while a little painful but I do have some 800mg Motrin. I was taking about 12 lortab 10's a day and sometimes 20 of the 5's if thats all I had. It is time to bid these pills fair well once and for all, When I first broke out with the shingles I went to the doctor to get meds for shingles. I told him my struggles with the hydrocodone. The doctor happened to be a pain management Dr. He said why don't I put you on a stronger pain med to help with the pain of the shingles and was going to prescribe me oxy 30's to take every 4 hrs and once the pain went away then I could go on suboxone. He said that some people stay on suboxone there whole life. I ended up telling him I would just rather stick with the hydrocodone. I got my script and never went back. I guess I'm not as bad off as what I thought. I could probably go there and get whatever I wanted but it really bothers me that a doctor would put money before humanity. I'm also reading the book "Natural Cures they don't want you to know about". It's enough to **** you off so bad you will never want to take another pill again in your life. I have about 10 pills left and I'm going to destroy them. I guess a symbolic gesture of finally being done with them. Wish me luck.

[Cris718]

awwwww......you flushed??  lol  Good for you......

Well the next 4 days or so are going to be misreable to say the least.  The best advice I can give you, is get out and excercise, even if I didn't feel like it, I made myself do it.  I do believe it's my new addiction.

I did go to the doctor, and he gave me Klonopin and Clonodine for the first 5 days of withdrawl.  It did help.  I believe an after care program would help a lot.

Just know......so so so very proud of you.  I took all mine in a blaze of glory....(not to smart)  I know........

But I hope to offer you some comfort that it does get better.....:)  I'm in 17 days now, and I am "finding" me again..........and I kinda like me again.....totally worth it.

Hollar if you need anything......we're all pulling here for you!!!!

Cris~

[6stringrock]

Still feeling miserable. Starting to feel like I need a plan. Anxiety is starting to set in about how I'm going to keep myself on the up and up. Flushing the pills gave me a little momentum but time is just draggin. Tommorrow at 12 noon will be 48 hrs. Think I will check out some after care.

[pattifan]

I'd just like to say really well done on going through with the flush!

Make the most of that support that's around you.

Many of us on the list have been through the exact same thing and our thoughts will stay with you.

Keep strong and keep going!

[6stringrock]

Yeah they are gone...I ended up flushing them. After they went down I had a moment of wanting to jump in the toilet and grab them. Then I mourned the loss of them. I'm miserable today. I've been very nauseas all day yesterday and today and was throwing up last night. I don't know as that I have a plan. I know that I definately don't want any pills. I'm actually not even craving them which is odd. I have alot of support around me. I never thought I would hear myself say that I'm looking forward to reuniting with me...I've missed me. I'm still a little fogged.

[Cris718]

so are they gone??  If they are, what's the plan?  Please know we are all here for you.

ok......I have to know.....how did you take them out?  lol  I would love to think it was some dramatic event.  I would even enjoy just pulling out my 20 gauge pink shotgun and just blowing them to pieces.....hey...it'd be good target practice!!

Hope your well........

Cris~

[LeaAnn807]

Great!  Get rid of them, and get your life back.  And NO sub for life.  Talk about a baaaaad detox!  Wheeeeew....NO thank you!

I flushed some tramadol that I found in my dryer after I had dried some clothes.  I didn't know it contaminated the water.......guess there are some energetic fish out there somewhere! LOL  Kidding.

I'm really proud of you.  You can do this!!! : )