Ive had the same thing happen to me too!! My cat was under the bed and rattling something around when out rolls this full bottle of perks! Well I immediately flushed them and later when I went to the bathroom there was my cat drinking outta the toilet and low and behold a few pills remnants remained! I was ssooo mad at the cat! I couldn't look at him! I think I was jealous too! Good Job today ((hugs))~Bkitty
Been there know exactly how it feels.did the same.it wasnt easy but it was easier than i thought and the next day i was so relieved and proud of myself
I remember when that happened to you Sonrissa, I always thought same thing I would never find any not even one much less a bottle of them. Was very weird day yesterday But I made it through and yes you are right it really wasn't an option taking even 1.
Thanks everyone for your kind words They really do mean a lot.
I had good day today I finished getting Xmas Decorations out and no more hidden surprises .
Last year I remember dreading Xmas and barely decorating because I was always too tired and trying to get away with the least as possible so the kids were happy but this year we decorated a lot my lights are up outside and I let my daughter pick out some new stuff to put up, we have this Huge Santa outside My kiddos are all so happy. And seeing them smile like this really means a lot. I have a lot to be happy about right now and I cherish my sobriety.
GREAT JOB!!!! the thing tht counts is you didnt take them!!! thts amazing !! u should b soooo proud of urself!
I'm really glad you didn't take them. I know you've been such a help to me and an inspiration and I think you're doing just great. It's always interesting to read your posts ... they're so honest. Glad you're ok!
Ya know, I never believed these stories about people "accidentally" finding pills, untill it actually happened to me one day while cleaning out my purse! Oh man, my mouth watered for a minute!
So proud of you girl! But, it really wasn't an option, was it? Way to get through a very tough day! You make me smile! Keep up the fight!
I just read this thread and smiled for so many reasons. I smiled at the humor, the honesty and the community that makes this forum work. Good work, conhall! I hope your sleep is sweet and strong..you deserve it.
I went to a Group meeting tonight and I am so glad I did I wasnt only one who had a rough day IT helped so much to see I wasnt alone. For some reason I started to talk tonight and I Just cried so much was almost like My Body just was overwhelmed and once I started everyone else did also.
I really felt very emotional because I was so caught off guard about the way I felt when I saw them scarred me and I did do the right thing / Thanks everyone for your post It does mean alot to me. I am going to take shower and read and just relax Sweet dreams.
Congrats on having that strength Conhall!! that was awesome!! you're an inspiration to me and others! glad you are doing so well!!
Thanks for posting this conhall.
IBKleen that's funny!
I was so uptight about the pills it was nuts...in all the years that I used I think I lost no more than 1 (I hardly ever had a script- always bought- so they always jangled around in my purse or pockets. Nonetheless, I kept them on lock and key. It was obsessive in a way. Now I put that energy into other more productive things and I'm so grateful for that!!
Boy oh Boy finding those pills when you least expect it is almost like getting cold water thrown on you when your sleeping! Takes the wind outta you for a minute! But you did great in flushing them! Its no simple task for our addict brains but this just proves that sober life looks good on you! Great job girl and thanks for inspiring the rest of us!! Especially me ;)
I keep hearing you say Sara "Always keep your Guard up " Words to always remember
that is really amazing. 171 days is still very close to your addiction and the way our brains work, you could have been right back to square one in a matter of minutes. you should DEFINITELY share at your meeting, you deserve applause and you should celebrate - that is a beautiful thing and a testament to your strength and perseverance. congratulations.
Cant really add much more to what has already been said. Congrats on flushing them and posting here. I still stand by my Grandma's Molasses...get yourself a spoon and start dipping.
Good job girl!!
This thread gave me a craving for chocolate...so I trotted over to the candy machine and wolfed down a Hershey Chocolate bar! :)
Welcome to the "I Found Some Pills And Didn't Take One but Thought About It" club! Membership is free! That happened to me. NOT pleasant. No matter how you think you'd react, you'll surprise yourself! I thought I would be like, "No problem!" WHOAH! My reaction wasn't what I would expect even after this long. You'd be surprised what a big, fat bottle of pills will do to you! It'll make you act like a nut. It'll make you wanna go outside in the pouring down rain and LOOK at them, lovingly, until someone comes and gets them! LOL
I know how you feel! You're doing the right thing by going to a meeting. You also did the right thing, obviously, by tossing them. I'm happy for you!
yes it is Pat :) I eat lots of sweats LOL My New thing is the Lil debbie cakes.
I gained a few pounds but I needed to because I looked unhealthy and now I am looking better
The best thing I would have to say that I have noticed as far as physical symptom is I sleep like a baby now :) When I was using I would sleep maybe 4 hours 5 tops and be wide awake ready for a pill. And when I woke up I felt Like $hit always before. Now I press snooze and try and sleep more .
I just went to the store and bough a coffee crisp and 2 packages of turtles. Just in case, you know. It's good to have chocolate, right? ;-0
Yes, I dream about pills too. Especially when withdrawing from them. In my dreams I am usually trying to obtain or counting them, making sure I don't run out.
Good tip Clean. I hope I don't stumble across one lying around somewhere, but in case I do, that's exactly what I need to do.
@Pat I am glad I helped you because yes My friend you have helped me very many times and I am proud of the progress you have made you even sound better :)) keep on pushing through you are stronger than you think we all are!
@ IBK I actually read your post and spit My Lil deb cakes out from laughing hahaha and then wanted to call a find out where the dumping site was :)
Thanks for making me smile.
@ Brian I was also very OCD about my pills But for some reason I had hidden those last Xmas when someone walked in room and I truly forgot about them I use to count my pills and separate them I was a NUT about it.
That is one thing I sure dont miss the coun ting the worrying. I just have to remember those things and how horrible life was and how life now is so good.
Truly did catch me off guard and I always gotta keep that guard up Like Sara says because when you least expect it.
Thanks everyone:)))
I find myself thinking 'if I just had a pill" I could do this or that. Then I force myself to do whatever it is that needs to be done and find myself praising myself for doing it without one. We have trained our brains that we can't do anything without them...so learning to do everyday things is a whole new challenge. But, I welcome that ...for a change.
btw....what city do you live in?? I think I just saw them float by... Good one IBK! I about spit my soda out when I read that! :)
Surprise??? I'm hiding in your Christmas stocking???? Ughhh... I'm so glad you shared that with us. As you may remember, I'm at 171 days, too. I haven't "stumbled" across a stash to date, but have thought it thru in case I do. I've decided AHEAD of time that if that happens to me I'll not even give my addict brain time to "consider" I'll grind it up in the garbage disposal IMMEDIATELY. I KNOW I can't trust my addict brain. Thank you for sharing this.....I needed to hear it girl.
We stress so much about the physcial stuff.....and really, after our bods aren't addicted to the stuff that is when the real work begins.
After you finish your little miss debbies and hit your meeting, you'll be all better. Not for good.....I know that.....but you got thru this one and you DONE GOOD!!
Happy 171 Days Conhall~
Congrats on staying so strong. We are close in clean time, I am unsure I would have been able to handle it. I always had kept mine in the same place and was sort of OCD about "my pills", so I feel pretty confident that kind of panic will not happen to me. I can relate to how you must of fleet though, it would had been a mixture of panic, excitement, and dread.
Congrats again!
Bryan